#afamspec

Parents made me go along to family bullshit in the city- 5 people in a tiny-ass car with kids who don't give a fuck about my space; touching me and making me tense-up- worsening my chronic pain.

having people talk about how they want to do or don’t want to do xyz but they don’t want to upset their family or let them down and just being like. but why??? you guys know you aren’t obligated to do anything for them just because you’re related, right???

i personally view my family as either aquaitences or just friends. like most of my family i know them but eh. and my sisters and my mother theyre more like friends.

The only reason I care about meeting my family in any regard is that I want to know why I'm like this and see if there's a family member that I'm similar to.

Afam experience is me having to go on a trip with just my mum in a few days for an overnight thing and just ughhhhhhhh. How do I get out of this without hurting her (just complaining, ignore me). Usually my dad and brother are on these trips as well but she’s decided to just take me because she likes me better ig which is confusing because I’ve been nothing but respectful but distant since childhood. And usually them being on the trip means I have some time away from everyone because they can all distract each other and I can go off alone. But she’ll expect me to be by her side constantly for two days. I even had a local therian event I wanted to go to on one of the days I’m away but I’d rather die than let my family know I’m a therian because that’s wayyyy too personal and they’ve not only broken my trust again and again, they’ve done nothing to earn it in the first place. So on this trip I go. At least there’ll be alcohol. FML otherwise