Aug 8
the fact that I can't even think about sex without wanting to vomit makes me feel like I'm broken as a person. like I don't deserve to keep living. or don't deserve to interact with people, especially on this website
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the fact that I can't even think about sex without wanting to vomit makes me feel like I'm broken as a person. like I don't deserve to keep living. or don't deserve to interact with people, especially on this website
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One of my old friends that I DONT want to unfollow, who I have not actually spoken to in many many months, never spoke to about my repulsion with, but who follows me and I have spoken about my repulsion on my blog, keeps reblogging untaggrd nsfw text (stuff talking about sex/masturbation/genitalia- Its jokes. She is reblogging crude jokes) which would be mostly fine because I have my content filters all super heavily filled in too. But she's resulting in me having to add MORE content/tag filters because some of those crude sex jokes are screenshots. So I get untagged sex jokes breaking their way through my extensive filter list and had to resort to filtering out the url of the OP of the post she reblogged in my content filters to avoid unfollowing her over it but I needed a way to block it from my feed. Like just tag your nsfw test as suggestive or something man 😭
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Being an aromantic sex repulsed asexual person who adores fictional family bonds is a very... "special" experience because not only you have acephobic people making fun of you for seeing them as a family and accusing you of being "childish", "anti sex" and the shippers pestering you for "erasing their romance" even when the romance is not canon, people accusing you of "puritanism" and "pushing your headcanons" (even when the dynamic is based on canon) but also you HAVE other asexual people acting like you killed their grandma and saying that you are "joining the hetero patriarchy system" "acting like family bonds are pure and the nuclear familiar sytems" "erasing complexity" "puritanism" and will proceed to act like they are superior just because they prefer to see to characters as "friends" and they like it when people ship them sexually and romantically oh god wow thanks! I feel so welcome on the community!😀
I sincerely don't get why people are like this and I can't help but feel like it's a form of acephobia. Yeah, not everyone has to like it, this is not about that. Family bonds are one of the few ocassions where there's not romance lens and there's zero chance of romance happening. I don't see why it's so hard to believe that a lot of aroace sex repulsed people would have a preference for it, instead of the allotypical dynamics where there's always an open door for romance... And I'm sorry, but as someone who's been on fandoms for like 15 years, most of the time the "Their relationship is ambiguous and people can see them as how they want!" is just a CLASSIC euphemism for people shipping them. And when the dynamic is mostly romantic then that's not ambigous, sir :/
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another day another tag to block
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Why is it always asexuals can have sex and aros can date and never that it's okay to just not want those things?
Allos only accept those who comply with their script. Not with those who refuse to go through it.
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due to lack of rep, ALL (yes all) FICTIONAL CHARACTERS UNLESS EXPLICTLY STATED/SHOWN OTHERWISE ARE NOW AROACE. It's funny.
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Recently, the author of a big fic in my community that I really love made another account to write a big smut fic, and only revealed the fact that they wrote it in the last chapter. Now everyone is going “wow! Yay! I’m so happy!” and I’m just disappointed. The fics on their previous account were really wholesome and in character, and now I can’t read them again without thinking about the smut fic. And by smut fic, I mean like ONLY SMUT and it was used to advance the story in a way that made no sense to me as an asexual, and trying to read it felt like that “he would not fucking do that. He would not fucking say that” post. The characters seem very asexual to me, mostly because of trauma and how they act in canon, and reading about them having sex just feels really uncomfortable. So I've had to take a break from the community because everyone is talking about the stupid smut fic and no amount of tag blocking will stop it.
Thank you for letting me scream into the void :)
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Was thinking of making a Loveless subreddit, as I just can't get the treatment I received there not so long ago, besides it being quite dead. & there just isnt a clear loveless space on Reddit. Should I?
Yeah
Nope
But it would be a public sub, unlike the repulsed one, which has strict rules just to avoid any intruders or traits who would complain to general communities & claim how "they get discriminated".
Saying this on this account, not my personal, as I feel like I have better traction here. Feel free to share this. It's still Aspec in some point so..
Edit: I'll be concluding the results after this weekend,or during the first 2 days of the next week, considering there's a very few options of poll duration.