#wlsproblems

Well guys... I did it! The reason for my LONG hiatus has finally reached its end. This past weekend I walked across the stage to receive my Master’s of Social Work. When I started my bariatric journey and started to struggle with mental health and body issues and found little to no resources specifically tailored to wls patients... I realized that I wanted to be the change that the world needed. So I enrolled in grad school and spent two very long and very hard years to achieve my dream. I have interned at a local hospital’s inpatient behavioral health unit and have actually been hired on part time. I am still not sure how exactly I will make a difference for the WLS population but I will get there.

Do you have any type of social media outlet that no one knows about?! For me it’s Tumblr.. it’s a nice way to write my truth and get any unbiased opinions and not have to worry about anyone’s feelings... a place I can say what I actually feel and think... a place I can vent without someone getting offended because they are the asshole I’m pissed at... what about you? Do you have a place?

Yesterday I made myself sick-not on purpose, but regardless, I made myself sick. I had eaten a cookie and I felt okay, so I did the wrong thing and ate two more. I dont know why I did that to myself. I should’ve known better. Today I’m a little down, as a result of that. The negative thoughts started creeping in, phrases like, “How can you be successful at weightloss if you do stupid shit like that?” Or, “You deserved to get sick.” Occasionally, I’ll hear the voice of ED (eating disorder) saying, “I wish you’d thrown up those cookies, you shouldn’t have eaten them. You need to lose more weight. You haven’t lost enough.” In reality, though, I’ve lost 30.7 pounds since October of this year. I’ve done really well. I may have only lost .2 pounds this week, but I lost weight, regardless! I know what an uphill battle weightloss has been for me, so I fucked up once...I’ve learned my lesson. I plan to start working out again this weekend, which should jump start the bigger losses again.

Heading to bed and realized I almost missed #transformationtuesday ! Rocking Anthony's pajama pants. I remember back in April, already down 90-some pounds, 67lbs heavier than I am now, being THRILLED that I could squeeze into them. (I was a little worried about stretching out the butt though so I wasn't wearing them for long!) Now I steal them all the time - they are so warm! 😍 and #wlsproblems - I'm always cold 😨 . Hope y'all had a happy first Tuesday of 2017! 😘😘 . #vsg #wls #vsginstacrew #wlscommunity #verticalsleevegastrectomy #nsv #weightloss #weightlosssurgery #bariatricbabe #bariatricsurgery #whyihadwls #rny #rouxeny #mnwls #lifeaftervsg #extremeweightloss #weightlossinspiration #weightlosstransformation #fitfam #beforeandafter #bodypositive #workout #effyourbeautystandards

As a wls person... I love tastings... I can get buzzed for about $16 lol.

I need peoples prayers! Thank you

I can't win, something is wrong again. I'm praying they figure it out. For the past 5-6 days I have had constant goosebumps, chills, body can not regulate temperature. As soon as I fall asleep I wake up within 5 minutes drenched in sweat...they have ran many tests and found multiple things going on...but again, they are puzzled as to why all of this is happening post surgery. I'm tired of hearing that, why am I the person who they have no clue what the hell is going on at all times. The pain is insurmountable, thank god they are giving me pain meds. Clothes touching my body, showering, just in general I have been in constant pain for 5 days. Not sure if they are going to have to go back in to do another surgery or what is going on yet. I'm not sure how much more of this I can handle...if you don't know I had the sleeve done June 2, 2015...have not been able to keep any food down, they pretty much thought I was doing it myself until they listened to me and did a standing test of me swallowing and found that my stomach was hanging instead of going horizontal. Almost 2 years of pure hell, not able to eat anything without vomiting...emergency surgery performed on April 28th...the sleeve converted to bypass, plus multiple other things they did while in there...sewing up my stomach to the proper place, gallbladder removed, IUD removed, biopsies of womanly parts taken, another IUD inserted. Now all this 😢

Hello to all my beautiful followers. I am so sorry I have been MIA for such a long time. As some of you may know... I am currently in grad school to get my MSW to be a counselor for bariatric patients. This year has been hell. I am busy working 30 hours a week, school full time, and interning 20 hours a week. Plus having homework and a life with my boyfriend and our two fur babies. Not only have I been trying to juggle all of this but I have also had a sudden and unexpected loss of a great friend who was only 30, a car accident in which someone hit me and totaled my car, and having to put our fur baby Marbles to sleep unexpectedly after finding out he was double the age of what we were told when we adopted him and he had serious health issues that were shutting down his insides. So... next week I have finals and will have a short break before my two classes for the summer starts. But we will be taking an 11 day Florida vacation and after this year of Hell, I am still happy and healthy. I have let my stress get the better of me and I haven't been taking care of my body like I should... but I vow to start doing better now that I'll have a break and can center myself. Thank you for sticking with me as I didn't expect to be away for so long. This picture is from my 4 mile run this afternoon. I haven't run since my 10k in October so I'm pretty proud of myself.