i just ate mcdonald’s and i feel disgusting. when will i leARN that it’s not worth it?! but at the same time… if i get weight loss surgery i will miss eating certain foods like dominos. i guess i could still have ONE SLICE if the urge overtakes me but what the fuck what about all you can eat sushi? or a ribeye?!
i’m thisclose to being ready for surgery- literally the only things left are a letter from my primary care provider and to lose 13 pounds. those things seem so insurmountable right now, even with the naltrexone. i need to get back to taking it.
when i start to have doubts about having surgery i always think it’s self sabotage because i think this (surgery) could be a really good thing for me but it freaks me out that i’ll never be able to binge again tbh















