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I hate how misunderstood osdd-1a is. I made a post a while ago talking about systemhood with a lack of amnesia barriers like osdd-1b and alters like osdd-1a, and so many ppl were like "so you mean a singlet" no that's actually not what I fucking said. Osdd-1a does not mean "doesnt have alters" it means theyre less elaborated or differentiated, like theyre all fragments or just different "versions" of the same identity, or maybe they all appear the same in headspace but use different labels and names. The best analogy I have for it is all those 2016 sans undertale AU ensembles and comics people would draw, theyre all the same person just different "versions". It doesn't matter if alters aren't that different from one another, if you still hear them in ur head and they still front then they are not just "mood states" like bpd or cptsd.
Osdd-1a systems are still SYSTEMS. They're still PLURAL. If they didn't have alters but still had amnesia barriers then thats not what a fucking system is, that would be diagnosed as dissociative amnesia (which yes, is a separate dx despite being a symptom of osddid!)
Sorry for the rant
the only real systems are the ones that *a gnome runs past me giggling* what the fuck? did you guys see that? what the fuck was that?
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i came up w a cool thing in therapy today with my therapists help. so like. alot of my parts struggle greatly with cooperating w each other and we all kinda hate each other, and the model of like "view them as your roommates or your friends or as vulnerable baby woodland animals" or whatever is in style now just makes us all even more angry at each other so ive started like. editing the model to something that part would actually agree with. like for me im trying to view my headpeople as patients at my office because im like dentist weirdo guy and it makes more sense to me bc i wouldnt wanna piss of my patients or else they might sue. and ig im supposed to like help them to the extent i can. i dont have to force myself to form an emotional bond to anybody bc i dont want to and thatd be inappropriate for my job but i can be civil and polite now because it'd be poor work ethic for me to tell a patient to shut the fuck up and go kill themself
What confuses me about other questioning systems is when they hear voices and still deny the possibility of being a system
Like I donβt hear voices at all but I act in ways I canβt control. Some people call that impulsivity
But straight up voices in your head is like the KING SYMPTOM lol
This is no hate, acceptance is hard, itβs just something I noticed that is different between me and other questioning people
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Hey fellow plurals, are you up to sharing some experiences?
We're curious! How did you first become aware of your system?
If that's too vague, what first caused you to suspect something was up? And what was the last straw where you were like "oh we can't just ignore this"? If you had a moment like that.
Why I don't like to talk about my alters on my accounts:
- Alters are not the only part of OSDDID! There's already a huuuuuge focus on alters online, it genuinely annoys me sometimes. I don't view my alters as a huge 'concern' because my concern is in my other symptoms, not alters specifically.
- It's only my business to know of my alters and their actions, I don't want to only ever talk about the silly goofy moments. I can sit here and tell you how X did something hehe haha, but that's not my daily reality. My daily reality isn't these fun moments; it's coping. I cope and deal with dissociation, C-PTSD symptoms, depression. I don't want my own presentation on posts to be those moments. I want to uplift people, I want to complain, I want to let myself be me and part of me are my struggles. I won't sit here and detail every little thing, of course, but my posts are about CDDs, not alter disorder. When I share parts of my life, I don't want to be innacurate to my own personal experiences to 'fit in' with anyone else.
- I rarely proxy in spaces like this because I see it sometimes as irrelevant. If I make a post, do you really need to know which alter wrote said post? I'm Bubblefizz online, that's all you need to know, right? You don't need to know me by any other name. If an alter decides to proxy online or make a sideblog or an account, that's their decision. Just know that here on Bubblef1zz the focus is uplifting and being realistic and putting light on the symptoms outside of alters directly.
Osdd-1 covers all forms of disordered plurality that dont fit into the criteria of DID (including pdid if ur in america), so the community only came up with osdd-1a for lack of distinct alters + amnesia and osdd-1b for distinct alters + lack of amnesia, why did no one think of osdd-1c for lack of distinct alters AND lack of amnesia barriers??