#osdd1b

Vampire Alter: An alter who feels that they are a vampire, or vampiric in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Robotic Alter: An alter who feels that they are a robot, or robotic in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Alien Alter: An alter who feels that they are an alien, or alien-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Angelic Alter: An alter who feels that they are an angel, or angelic in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Demon Alter: An alter who feels that they are a demon, or demonic in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Animal Alter: An alter who feels that they are an animal, or animalistic in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Ghost Alter: An alter who feels that they are a ghost, or ghost-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Elf Alter: An alter who feels that they are an elf, or elf-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Dragon Alter: An alter who feels that they are a dragon, or dragon-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Fairy Alter: An alter who feels that they are a fairy, or fairy-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

Zombie Alter: An alter who feels that they are a zombie, or zombie-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

All of these flags can be found as emojis in my server

It’s finished. And yet I have SO much left to say. I almost feel like starting an activist group for this niche community. If you know how to do that and are interested in helping, message me. You don’t need to be a system yourself.

I’d appreciate if this spread. I’ll take the nightmare notifications if it means that people outside of the dissociative community might understand and care.

As mentioned, my experience is not universal. This is a comic about the experiences we have, and some that we know others have. For example, some people that saw the preview noted that they DO identify as genderfluid collectively. I love to hear about your experiences; reading the notes on that post was delightful. All systems are different! We all deserve a world we can live as ourselves without risk.

there's a huge plethora of reasons, some of which i've mentioned here, but a bit more thorough of a breakdown list can be:

- 1) i've recieved a large amount of harassment from (pro)endogenics ever since i encountered the system community, and its only gotten worse when i went through syscovery + when i awakened as an alterhuman. (pro)endos have attempted to shoo me out of communities for years due to me being critical of them, and that harassment has eventually led to resentment. i also went through grooming and outright had my abuse/trauma ignored due to it.

- 2) the origins of 99% of their terms are either ableist, medical terminology "recoined" to be broader, or outright appropriated. some terms include endogenic (used previously to undermine and/or outright deny the existence of CDDs, the psychologist a lot of beings link to proving this exists also was an active medical malpracticioner that abused his patients iirc), natural multiple (derived from natural multiplicity movement, which is an ableist movement aimed to demedicalize and remove did/osdd from the dsm), tulpamancy (which is derived from a closed practice + has nothing to do with systemhood either way), soulbond (once again, nothing to do with systems), alters & system/multiplicity (all medical terminology to describe did/osdd beings) etc. list could go on.

- 3) the grooming that is rampant in the community genuinely irks me. i know multiple people, including people very very close and dear to me, who have been groomed into that community and either forced to discover trauma they were not ready to deal with, were manipulated into believing they didn't experience trauma and/or that it wasn't enough for their disorder, or that their disorders cause systemhood and thus had dissociative episodes far more frequently, when they weren't systems at all. i see this the most when i see (pro)endos target the mentally ill (namely, those with personality disorders such as bpd and those with disorders like schizophrenia). it sickens me.

- 4) the rampant misinformation also bothers me. cdds are traumagenic disorders, period. systems are caused by cdds. this has been scientifically proven like 80 gazillion times at this point. systems and alters are formed through a huge mish-mash of trauma responses the brain does when it doesnt think it can survive. its where the term system comes from -- "system of survival". alter is alternative identity state. many alter roles (like persecutor/malicitor for example) are quite literally describing trauma responses (in this case, negative trauma responses an alter may have/do to the system). "we dont know everything about the brain" / "the brain works in weird ways" just ignores all of the current research done into them. yes, we dont know everything about the brain, but we sure as hell know a LOT more than you'd think. also, the entire concept of "median systems" or "broken singlets" entirely overtakes actual disorders that present that way (osdd1a & pdid), to the point where i have met many beings who will say they have pdid/osdd1a and instantly be responded to with "isnt that just being a median system?" -> edit: furthermore this post explains the ableism behind the term median as well. will always reccomend pluraldeepdive for some info theyve got a good lot of it.

if you truly believe to be a non-traumagenic plural, then it wont be anything like a cdd's multiplicity. you cant experience our trauma responses without trauma to have it happen. you cannot equate your experiences to being the same as someone with trauma's experiences. they are fundamentally different. taking our terms, making fun of our disorder, making terms such as "sysmed" and "traumascum" to degrade others, and overall hosting an anti-recovery environment does not make traumatized individuals think your community is safe. not to mention that just, in general, equating your experiences and life to that of a traumatized being who has a debilitating disorder is ableist. you do not experience the same shit i do, stop saying that you do.