Jul 27
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Nice to read you again guys.
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You know somethingβs wrong when you come back to tumblr.
Well, here we go I guess,
Nice to read you again guys.
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I look
in the mirror.
I do not recognize "myself."
I watch "my" hands,
typing a message
to "my" boyfriend:
"I love you
so
much."
I feel nothing.
I roll over in bed.
Scratch the blemishes
on "my" aching shoulders.
They are already bloodied.
Fingers pull away wet,
skin stinging painful.
I feel nothing.
"My" friends,
family,
talk to "me."
I hear "myself" laughing.
I hear "myself" joking.
Their voices are
static in "my" ears.
I feel nothing.
I feel nothing.
Do any fellow systems (or singlets too I guess?) have any tips on keeping track of all the alters and their names and stuff? We're beginning to realize we're a bit out of our depth trying to just remember it all and there's probably still a lot of us we don't even know about yet...
I had fatigue. Felt sick because under stimulated and had negative brain activity -atis
I had burn out ! I crashed keeping up with things -Lisica
I had a waffle-πΆ
how often do you have possessive-style switches? (definition below)
this is the only type of switch we/i have
very often, dailyo
semi often, multiple times per month
once in a while, around usonce a month
rarely, a few times a year
very rarely, less than once a year
we/i have never had possessive switches
used to have them more often, now rarely / not at all
we/i never fully switch
i'm unsure / other / vanilla extract / singlet button
possessive switches are a form of overt switch in people with dissociative disorders. they are described as being complete black outs between switches, often sudden and quick, where one part is suddenly taken from front as another is shoved in - similar to spiritual "possessions" as might be seen in a movie.
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"I hate splitting" and "i love all my headmates, including the new ones" are things that can coexist in a system btw
i love being a system i love having plural friends I love letting my brain free to do what it wants i love living with greater understanding
This is the last I will post about the Octo situation and this is all my own speculation, but based on my 4 year interactions with the community at large, this is how I see it.
Atlas is young. They started building Octo at 18. If you look at the issues every Dev in this community is facing, you'll see that harassment in the face of Simply Plural being shut down has been massive, and SO MUCH of what I'm seeing is Endo driven. The constant ask of 'ARE YOU ANTI-ENDO?!" Is so frustrating and stupid. It doesn't matter, since no one can control who uses their app, and to be clear a DID TRACKING APP should be anti-endo. If you're not Disordered, why would you need a tracker to help you know who's fronting? You don't, and you don't need the medical info if you believe you're not disordered.
I really don't care what anyone else believes concerning Syscourse, but everything I have seen in terms of harassment toward devs has come from Endos (Mostly teenagers) DOG PILING Devs about their Syscourse Stance. LEAVE PEOPLE ALONE. Endos are so desperate for validation they will harass people right off the internet. Atlas had every intention of building an amazing platform, and in 3 DAYS the community managed to ruin his mental health enough to drive him away from developing an app he has poured thousands of hours into. The harassment has to have been strong and the Endo community has a heck of a history with that. (Looking at the tag takeovers and Sophie in general). And because CHILDREN see harassment as okay, we now have one less accessibility tool. And my founding for this comes from the many other Devs also being harassed in the face of SP's shut down. Ampersand had to close down all their socials just to avoid this wave of utter crap. Atlas hasn't even updated their status or description on discord, assumably because they don't want to deal with it all.
You ruined it. Endos and real Systems who couldn't keep their shit to themselves ruined to for everyone. You literally drove most Devs in our community to abandoning projects.
The System community is great at eating itself.
Once again I won't be replying to anything- so do with this post what you will. I'll just say that until there is good, peer reviewed science that shows reasons DID wouldn't be formed from trauma, I'm not changing my opinion and I'm not interacting with children who roleplay my life-long disorder.
