#questioning system

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We used to think we were just weird and that it was some part of us that was just kind of “wilder” or “primitive,” but with time in spaces where people experience shifts and have theriotypes, alters, ____kins, etc…. We realized that our “weird behavior” was only like that because we suppressed them from fear of being judged. Now we have come to terms with our plurality, and with time we have also come to know the names of our parts, the individual parts who make us up and are slowly learning how each is different along with what triggers them to front.

That being said, Hello from Solar,

I’m usually the one fronting, but Jack and Lunar also want to say hello =w=

I like using using he/him when referencing myself alone, for example to separate my interests from Soundwave’s, Lunar’s, or Jack’s interests, otherwise when referencing ourself fronting with the body we more commonly use we/our/us and other plural pronouns/variations ^^!

We are unsure if we are traumanewgenic (I have no idea if that’s spelled correctly or not), we could be due to our rocky childhood environment. Also if it was due to that then Jack was likely the first alter to be fading in and out, taking very small bits of control on occasion, etc. Now having latched onto a personality/source that felt right for him, he is a lot bolder and more his own person. Anyway, as a “questioning system” we generally are fine with masculine pronouns, since all of us use he/him as of current.

Shoutout to systems who struggle to view what they went through as traumatic or traumatic enough.

Shoutout to systems who have a lower stress tolerance due to other factors like other forms of neurodivergency that led to trauma

Shoutout to systems who cannot identify their trauma though they know it happened.

Shoutout to systems who experienced socially acceptable trauma

Shoutout to systems who feel like they just broke one day

Shoutout to systems who feel like their trauma wouldn't have happened/been as bad if they were born different

Shoutout to systems who feel alone because they never see anyone experience something like them. You're probably less alone than you think.

I can't tell if other emotions are mine or other alters bc I'm blank, like no full emotions, most the time, but then BAM!! tears, urge to yell or throw something, or BOTH

my bedroom isn't in a very good state and so i need to start thinking about redecorating while fixing it up.

questioning if im a system or not bc of these reasons

i have multiple personas (what i call them) and i feel like i am more like one at one time

i forget easily. even when its something ive known for years. i will literally forget someones name when ive known them since i was a kid

i find shit thats mine that i have literally no memory of owning (biggest ex is clothing)

i dont remember most of my childhood. i remember really only the traumatic parts, and even those are foggy.

speaking of trauma, i only remember specific traumas at like specific times. which is why most of the time i pass off smth that REALLY fucked me up as something that wasnt that bad.

i talk to myself A LOT. like a ungodly amount. but its in a way where i feel like im talking to a lot of people.

i have very bad mood swings

i have had weird ass manic(?) episodes where i talk to someone else but its only me

i forget who i am a lot

counterpoints to those speculations bc i am just weird sometimes

i make multiple simply bc i just like character design

i repress a lot of things

again, repression

AGAIN, REPRESSION

i just forget important details easily

i am autistic and talking to myself is very stimulating

i am very depressed, and thats a factor

thats only happened like 3 times