#actually polyfrag

what's been gnawing at us lately, besides the everything that is our life, is that i do feel there's a weird "default" that you just ... gotta ... be aesthetic as fuck in the system community.

you gotta have pretty bios, you need icon masks and entirely filled out info with 49735345 fucking symbols screen readers can't read and/or don't work on all devices.

this is purely a me thing. there's no system god pointing their gun at my head to make our shit aesthetic and nice looking but i feel like if we don't we'll die or something.

shout out to the systems that just...cannot... do aesthetics. you're either too big, can't decide, disabled in any form, and/or just don't want to. i get it. you aren't alone.

The DID/OSDD community needs to get their heads out of their fucking asses.

I understand wanting an easy way to keep track of alters, and I also understand the frustration of it as a Polyfragmented system.

However the DID/OSDD community has an honestly absurd amount of entitlement. Yes, I know not everyone in these communities is like this. But the ones who are:

You are NOT entitled to harassing and shitting on and being a cunt to the devs of any app/website because you want something done right now. If it's such an issue that things aren't working, make your own goddamn app.

And before people come at me with "oh but that's not easy/I don't have time" etc. That's exactly my fucking point. If you yourself know it's not easy and it's time consuming and a pain in the ass then stop harassing the devs of apps that have put effort and time into making sure these apps work to the best of their ability.

It's one thing making an app for yourself to use, it's a completely different thing making it for a larger audience.

Yes. We are disabled due to our disorder, I'm not denying that. But for the love of God you people need to drop the fucking entitlement and learn to have some patience and humility because at the rate the community is harassing devs YOU will be the cause of these apps completely disappearing and you'll also be the first to shit in your pants about it online when it happens.

The same people screaming for accessibility and support are the ones torching the bridge they're standing on. Developing and maintaining an app for systems is a massive logistical headache; privacy concerns, encryption, data syncing, and when the community responds with harassment because a feature isn't "perfect" or "instant," they’re just fast-tracking the death of the few resources they actually have.

It's genuinely pathetic that "having a disorder" is being used as a shield for being a total prick to developers. You are going to wake up one morning to a 404 error and have absolutely no one to blame but your own lack of impulse control.

And yes while I am pissed off I am also talking from experience, parts of this community are lovely. But a VERY large part of it is the most toxic cesspool I have ever encountered.

people dont join cults because theyre stupid. people join them because cult leaders PREY on them. they find people who are vulnerable and offer them community and perceived safety

they dont come out swinging with "im the only one who can speak to this meteorite" or "the world is going to end on xx/xx/xx". they open by bonding with you over regular activities. you meet in line at the coffee shop and get to chatting, and they give you their number. you find them at the park playing basketball with other members and assume theyre friends.

youre with them for weeks, maybe months before they let you feel like an "insider." they tell you everything in pieces so you have time to internalize it. they encourage you to keep these things secret, because other people wouldnt understand- and if you do tell others and they do call you crazy, that just solidifies that belief and pushes you further into the cult.

sometimes they have members be the reason for certain 'discoveries' or new elements of control. in the cult i was in, i had to be away for an extended period of time, and when i returned, the leader told me they had discovered astral projection was driven by emotion and in their deep yearning to see me had astral projected to my location to watch over me while i was away. while it was framed as a means of companionship, community, and protection, all it truly did was make everybody involved feel that they were always being watched and were never truly alone. it scared us into following the rules of the cult when we were at school or work.

its a gradual process. if i explained everything that i would be taught in one sitting to myself prior to joining the cult, i never would have. i would have laughed and said 'that sounds ridiculous, who would ever believe that?' but thats the point. its boiling frog syndrome. since its so gradual, you dont notice youre boiling until youve already been burned too badly to leave.

in fact, being in this cult did severe restructuring to my system and caused me to discover the fact i even was one- years before i was ready to learn that information. to this day i still struggle with parts- even those that front semi-frequently- following old rules and inflicting old punishments upon us.

We can't system map like others, we can't possibly afford to cater to each alter's preferences physically, we struggle to make sense of our identity more often than not and the whole "just use xyz organizing tool!" takes significantly more time as well. A lot of system spaces just feel like they weren't built with us in mind.

"you have that many alters?! Wow I can barely keep up with 6!" Like, wow yay I'm so glad, I can't keep having the same conversation over and over. With things like polyfragmentation being under researched in an already under researched disorder, it feels like putting pieces into an incomplete puzzle. Your box didn't even have all the pieces to begin with.

We've had different hosts try to "eliminate" other alters by simply not keeping track of them, trying to not advocate for them, etc. we've tried to lessen our parts before. It's impossible though, you can't remove alters, you only end up hurting a real part. It's harmful, but the desire to become more "normal" is crazy intense.

the future is not plural

DiD is a TRAUMA based disorder

Your guys keep spreading miss information

The syspunk is not made for you