#actually polyfrag

have been regressed for likes, almost a week now... send helps, and stuffies, and snuggles, and crayons.... and maybe fruit snacks if you have any....

having a not so baja blast right nows so i think brain has limited front access to "syskids" and "age regressors that are currently small"

We can't system map like others, we can't possibly afford to cater to each alter's preferences physically, we struggle to make sense of our identity more often than not and the whole "just use xyz organizing tool!" takes significantly more time as well. A lot of system spaces just feel like they weren't built with us in mind.

"you have that many alters?! Wow I can barely keep up with 6!" Like, wow yay I'm so glad, I can't keep having the same conversation over and over. With things like polyfragmentation being under researched in an already under researched disorder, it feels like putting pieces into an incomplete puzzle. Your box didn't even have all the pieces to begin with.

We've had different hosts try to "eliminate" other alters by simply not keeping track of them, trying to not advocate for them, etc. we've tried to lessen our parts before. It's impossible though, you can't remove alters, you only end up hurting a real part. It's harmful, but the desire to become more "normal" is crazy intense.

A. They can overlook and treat us as one monolith because many of us have overlapping personalities

B. That it is the greatest sin on earth to be a big system

C. That we have be miserable about it

And it continues to happen. Its annoying asf and people clearly don't think before they speak. This happens in other polyfrag spaces because we're twice the size of many other polyfrag systems we meet.