Oddly enough one of the most meaningful/painful parts of I Saw the TV Glow was when Owen is sitting there, watching the old tapes, someone with a family and an adulthood (or so she tells us), however small and sad that life is, and she tells us how abjectly humiliated she is rewatching them. The cheesiness of the show, its stilted and childish plots, the bad acting and bad visuals and whatever elseâ Owen is humiliated to have been saved by this bad TV show. And regardless of the fact that I donât think the Pink Opaque she watches is the actual Pink Opaque that saved her, it tunes into this fascinating and essential part of living dissociated from your actual life and restored/saved/rescued by media, which is the shame of living like this. Yes, this was the thing that helped me survive; it was awful and childish and embarrassing and I canât believe I survived it, I canât believe I got through this period with the help of this. Itâs so easy, when your life is so small, to be ashamed of your lifelines: itâs so easy to survive and look back and be horrified at how pathetic (however untrue it may be) and pitiable you were, and then, in reaction to that blinding embarrassment, lash out at your former self, try to say how much youâve moved on (because youâre better now, of course youâre better, you donât need to be saved by anything, right?). You loved this? The reason youâre alive is because of this? How embarrassing. How sad.