Bri, She/Her, 🏳️⚧️, 30's, delighted poet "Seems to approach most things with the alacrity of a 9 year old in legoland"
PFP artistic courtesy of the lovely @handthattakes
If you wish to follow me then know that in so doing in place of a Dark Lord you would have a queen! Not dark but beautiful as the dawn! Treacherous as the Sea! Stronger than the foundations of the Earth! All shall love me and despair!
I block very liberally. Nothing personal is meant by it.
I have many posts queued. They aren't always tagged b/c it's way more work on mobile.
You’ll see explanations for frequently used tags under the cut.
“My posts” are text posts I’m the OP of.
“Poetry” is poetry that I’ve reblogged OR written.
“Passages” is pieces of prose that don’t qualify as poetry (there might be some overlap) Also as of 8/23/24 I only just started using this tag so it'll be empty for a minute.
“Writing Mechanics” is writing advice or similar meta discussion of writing.
"Writing Meta" is anything else about writing communities, the practice, or my general thoughts.
“Brianna original writing” is something that I wrote and linked here or posted here!
“Brianna’s highposting again” is silliness (or deeply emotional stuff) that I posted while high.
“My face” is selfies and such. Don’t dig too deep you’ll get jumpscared.
Edit, new additions:
"Witchsongs" was an old tag I used for sharing different art, images, songs, and such that fit into a spooky aesthetic. We're bringing it back babey
"Trans thoughts" is my tag for my own personal reflections on transness and transitioning. There's definitely older trans thoughts that were posted before i started collecting them.
I also tag stuff for The Masquerade (the Baru Cormorant books), Wheel of Time (show and books), and a few other fandoms. Just a heads up I am very forgetful and often don't tag spoilers. Sorry! :(
"on meat" is gore. I write gothic horror, (and schlocky riffs on gothic horror) gore's part of the trade I'm afraid
"Brianna's wizardposting again" is me being silly, and crafting other worlds, or posting about the majestic and magisterial ziggurat
"Spiders" is my tag for spiders. I'd get more fun with that tag, but i don't want to accidentally trigger someone's phobia.
"Bri's on the pole" <- me talking about pole dance, OR videos or pictures of me on the pole
“Therrin” <- that’s my THE character of all time. Protag and PoV to two major WiPs of mine
Also feel free to check out the actual blog website https://briannysey.tumblr.com/ I put a decent chunk of work into it lmao
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Two months ago I was doing full on mickey mouse voice like oh boy I can't wait for my friends to read my novel! And now that my friends are reading my novel it's just 100% mel blanc screams.
the gender euphoria of being a lady who wears a blouse is great. but the euphoria of taking off a blouse??? even greater!
the way blouses are cut requires taking them off differently than how like men's tshirts need to be taken off. So everytime i do the cross-arms-hem-grab-pull maneuver internally I'm like "Wow, just like a lady. This is so neat :3" (and also it's hot)
god I'm such a slut for Chinese eggplant in garlic sauce *decides it’s inaccurate to refer to myself as a slut in light of my minimal sexual activity* if The Enemy discovered my ardor for Chinese eggplant in garlic sauce, they would gain a significant strategic advantage
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one of the funny things about tumblr is that sometimes you can learn by being wrong. Let's say you make a post using the word "fricative" (as a totally hypothetical example 😅) and are promptly informed that you misunderstood what a fricative was.
being wrong is one of the greatest opportunities for learning. If you get corrected, try to keep ego out of it, verify the correction, and then thank someone for teaching you. And then of course, hold grace for others when you point out their mistakes. You'll be happier this way
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re: ulysses reading with/without annotations it's NOT that i'm an annotation hater. it's that i always wanna see what i can get out of a book without help first, so that i have an actual basis on which to interpret the annotations. even if my reading is shallow and wrong, i'd like a baseline of (mis?)understanding before i get the answers handed to me. that way, when i go to the annotations, i have at least a hazy picture of the book's full scope through which to interpret the interpretation.
i think ulysses is actually the prime place to exercise this, because it's so famously Hard To Get. why try to get it on your first read? who do you think you are? idk maybe you could. but just read it twice, once without annotations and once with. the people who wrote those annotations didnt get all that on their first read. why concern yourself with getting a good grade in reading? ulysses is a really good book and i think most people would be stressing themselves out of enjoying it by trying to Get It on the first try. it's incredibly funny and poignant and full of fascinating storytelling techniques. you dont have to put a name to every single one of them to enjoy them. it's written in such a way that you can usually tell when joyce is making a Reference to something, even if you don't know what the reference actually is, so if you just let yourself enjoy the book at face value, you'll still probably get something out of it.
obviously some of you need to maximize mental stimulation at all times, and still more of you need to perfectly understand and be right about everything in order to enjoy it. so yeah you're gonna want the annotations. but for us mortals who like non-research reading, ulysses doesnt have to be a degree program. it can be. go have fun. but it doesnt have to be. sighs so sneetly.
nothing worthwhile i just had a baby moment about being lumped in with people who have to be right about something in order to enjoy it when i don't think that's why i enjoy annotations. but then i remembered that we are not always about me
but Modernism, in the literary sense, was the aesthetic movement that rose to prominence in the early 20th century that could best be simplified under the rallying cry "Make it fresh, make it new." Rapidly increasing literacy rates paired with a swiftly changing industrial world led to increasing commercial possibilities with forms like the novel (it was getting easier and easier to make money writing and selling em) and infected many writers with an understanding that conventions could be broken and forms innovated and iterated on. There was an explosion in formal experimentation and a psychological undercurrent to much of the literature that the world had been made radically different from the past.
My knowledge base lies largely with the Harlem Renaissance (in which all the psychological undercurrents of transformation in the machine age were amplified - the Great Migration with all its triumphs and horrors were radically reshaping African American life). A great example of literary Modernism from the HR include Jean Toomer's Cane, which is a dreamy novel that's a sort've collection of poems, dialogues, and short stories that interweave throughout the work. Other great there are Bruce Nugent with his forays into free indirect discourse, Zora Neale Hurston's work with phonetically spelled dialect, and Wallace Thurman's play with unreliable narrators and roman a clefs (there are many other examples, but im sticking to some of my favorites - though if you were to read one and only one story to come out of the Harlem Renaissance I beg that you make it Nella Larsen's Passing).
But there's a multitude of other writers across discipline and culture who epitomized modernism. James Joyce, and especially his Ulysses is seen as like the crowning achievement of the movement. But other famous works of the movement include Beckett's Waiting for Godot and T. S. Eliot's "The Waste Land".
Modernism is really hard to pin down and define exactly, with its edges and boundaries being really porous. You can contrast it with (but not separate it entirely from) other aesthetic movements like Romanticism (which Modernism kind of grew out of) and the Gothic (which also kind of grew out of Romanticism, but also Modernism and the Gothic deeply influenced each other - there's no good generalizations one can make here without being partially inaccurate).
Modernism also paved the way for (you guessed it) Postmodernism! (It's like modernism for posts -> that's a joke).
But, to summarize badly: Modernism is just the broad term for the hyper-inventive and exploratory literature of the early 20th century that attempted to grapple with huge changes in the world and the culture, and Modernism produced some of the greatest literary works of all time. And it's also one of my favorite aesthetic movements, having had a massive impact on my own writerly sensibilities
addendum here: I'm certainly not an expert, and im certain ive said at least one thing wrong here that would piss off an expert. so take all this with not just grains but a whole loaf of salt.
re: ulysses reading with/without annotations it's NOT that i'm an annotation hater. it's that i always wanna see what i can get out of a book without help first, so that i have an actual basis on which to interpret the annotations. even if my reading is shallow and wrong, i'd like a baseline of (mis?)understanding before i get the answers handed to me. that way, when i go to the annotations, i have at least a hazy picture of the book's full scope through which to interpret the interpretation.
i think ulysses is actually the prime place to exercise this, because it's so famously Hard To Get. why try to get it on your first read? who do you think you are? idk maybe you could. but just read it twice, once without annotations and once with. the people who wrote those annotations didnt get all that on their first read. why concern yourself with getting a good grade in reading? ulysses is a really good book and i think most people would be stressing themselves out of enjoying it by trying to Get It on the first try. it's incredibly funny and poignant and full of fascinating storytelling techniques. you dont have to put a name to every single one of them to enjoy them. it's written in such a way that you can usually tell when joyce is making a Reference to something, even if you don't know what the reference actually is, so if you just let yourself enjoy the book at face value, you'll still probably get something out of it.
obviously some of you need to maximize mental stimulation at all times, and still more of you need to perfectly understand and be right about everything in order to enjoy it. so yeah you're gonna want the annotations. but for us mortals who like non-research reading, ulysses doesnt have to be a degree program. it can be. go have fun. but it doesnt have to be. sighs so sneetly.
Therapist-posting time: Let’s talk about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.
I am not primarily a CBT therapist. I use some CBT in my practice, but not to fidelity in the way that they do in the studies. CBT is not a perfect modality, and the rigid way it’s often implemented leaves a lot of people cold – in my opinion, any manualized treatment will fail if the therapist prioritizes fidelity to the manual over building a warm and trusting relationship with their patient, but that’s my bias as a person-centered therapist. But a lot of critiques of CBT are based on misinformation about how CBT is actually supposed to work.
CBT is not about looking at every single thought that distresses you and going “nuh uh, not true!” or automatically swapping it with a more positive thought that may or may not be accurate. CBT is about looking at your distressing thoughts and evaluating the evidence for those thoughts.
So if you are a trans person in America and you are distressed by the thought “my government is trying to kill me,” proper CBT would not try to talk you out of that thought, because there is actually quite strong evidence for that being true. The next step would be more along the lines of safety planning and identifying where you have agency to protect yourself.
But if you are depressed and anxious, you may also be prone to thoughts like “my boyfriend hates me” and the evidence for that may be “he didn’t answer my good morning text until lunchtime” or “he seemed sort of distracted on our phone call last night.” CBT would encourage you to reflect on whether that is actually strong enough evidence to believe that your boyfriend hates you, particularly in light of the fact that you may have other, stronger evidence that he actually likes you very much.
If you find yourself thinking things like “my boyfriend hates me” a lot, and you notice that the evidence for these thoughts is often not terribly compelling, the next step may be to identify cognitive distortions causing you to think that way. In the case of “my boyfriend hates me” the relevant cognitive distortion is “mind reading” – believing that you can tell what other people are thinking or feeling with no or minimal evidence, which for depressed and anxious people usually involves just taking your own negative thoughts about yourself (“I’m annoying,” “I’m stupid,”) and projecting them into the brains of innocent bystanders (“they think I’m annoying,” “she thinks I’m stupid.")
CBT obviously runs into limits when someone is distressed primarily as a result of their concrete life circumstances and not disordered thinking. But I have learned to be skeptical when people suffering extreme levels of depression and anxiety insist that their thinking is actually 100% accurate and not negatively biased in any way. This is not impossible – it is common for people living with abusive partners or families, in war zones, prison camps, homeless, very ill, etc. – but it is not the norm for the majority of depressed and anxious people.
Evaluating the evidence for your depressed and anxious thoughts is a valuable skill. Even if you evaluate the evidence for your negative thoughts and find it pretty strong – maybe you’re thinking “my boyfriend hates me” because he called you a bitch and hung up on you! bona fide hater behavior! – you’ll typically still be better off for having taken the time to actually think through the evidence before acting on the thought.
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i dont think RE-reading joyce with the objective of studying the intricacies more deeply, using scholarly guides, is a bad idea, if you want to do it; curiosity is always a good thing. but doing it on your first read is patently insane. i think this entire conversation is just what happens when people get scared of modernism. the mystery is the point. you have to keep moving. thats the entire point. i would even argue it's not for nothing modernism in literature coincides with the jazz age. you have to keep it moving! the world as we knew it is gone and yet new perspectives and overwhelming freedom are opening every day, you have to throw yourself into it. it's interesting to see that people say the same thing about both ulysses and the waste land (and so-called "intellectual, complicated" poetry in general tbh). and they have the same approach too. you simply do not have to do all that. you simply have to read the sentences. ok. you let the words pass you through ok. you just look at the text and you keep it moving. you will understand when you stop trying to understand. because you will understand it's not about understanding. idk!!!! just experience it and stop trying to think about it idk idk let it flow over you and then you'll see. it's not a test it's not an exam it's weird on purpose idk stop being earnest and trying to be good. you will not get a good grade in modernist literature. it is shrimply Unpossible. or maybe i am actually the intellectual fraud ive always worried about being . whomst canst telleth