#did stuff

heres a few of us in Toca world. Its actually a little weird giving ourselves bodies on a game, but its really helping me mind map/figure things out about my system actually..

Im not going to share names or anything yet, this also isn't all of us (I know I've dropped a few but I don't want more info about anyone else out for a bit longer)

Emma is the one in the green shirt on the bottom with brown hair ;))

Sick of still not knowing who is who but the past few weeks have been totally fuckeddd..

ANYWAY here is how I used my limited energy today.

Got dressed (which is sometimes very difficult when multiple people want to dress different) picked my Chicago deep dish pizza shirt and these comfy red bottoms. Mouse, Mikey and the kids liked the shirt, and the girls really love this red set, so the bottoms were okay and matched enough..

Walked to the store, listened to the Smiths. Not sure who wanted it but someone said something so they obviously really wanted to listen to this specific tape.

Here is what we got at the store!! our friend gave us money which was very special and kind so that we were able to get a treat <3 it really means a lot

The girls wanted bath salts, and Mouse really wanted icecream... Mouse is really the only one of us with a sweet tooth. Well maybe the kids too but what kid doesn't?

Construction paper for our oil pastels, new crayons for the kids and we are all happy with what we got!!

Ended up feeling exhausted after, but frustrated with that.. FINALLY we were able to take a nap once everyone at least tried to do something/communicated what they wanted to do

After nap we tried to practice STANDING ON A SKATEBOARD (sorry Mikey) he really wants to skate but we are too emotionally and physically tired so we got sad and frustrated.. but any practice is still practice..

Ignore the shoe and sock combo, I know these arent really shoes but I couldn't find the ones my sister gave me

The kids wanted to draw but we are too blendy and they couldn't on their own for some reason.. even though usually they come right up! its probably from such little energy.. Its a thank you card for our friend :)

And last photo is Emmas Favoirte shirt!!!! (we have a few favorite shirts TELL ME I CANT I DARE U)

Dont be ashamed if you cant skate YET

My body is finally feeling back to normal from being sick. Having DID and getting sick is so weird, because for our system we all have different pain tolerances and whatever. Mostly physical pain is just an uncomfortable inconvenience.

Also we've been gone for two weeks. Family vacation in Florida and then the night we got home from the trip I had a bit of a freak out with my mom and ended up being taken to the hospital..

the police picked me up off the street, I went to the hospital, had to drink the nasty charcoal stuff, went on a second vacation at the loony bin..

For us we dont switch/front clearly unless we all know it is safe. DID is very hard to unmask and we have been putting in a lot of work so that we can feel comfortable expressing ourselves.

Now that we are home we are going to try to get back to work!! I'm hoping today we will get stuff done and post some photos and things so that this can be more bloggy!

I have been diagnosed with DID, that being said, I do not feel comfortable with endo systems or people who believe/support that to interact with me. This is the only time I will bring this term up on my blog. Discussion on this topic is not welcome.

If you think that endo systems are real, I highly suggest you educate yourself on how systems are formed. It stems from repetitive childhood trauma, and you cannot become a system as an adult. DID is a survival mechanism, and sharing a body/mind is not a funny game.

This account will be sharing my own personal experiences and treatment, know that every system is different and I see you all <3

im here to educate and break down stigma/ misinformation about this disorder.

system: okay so, you, yes YOU, the LEAST STABLE OF EVERYONE! Youre gonna stay hosting right fucking now! And! We are not going to say anything to you at all for three weeks RIGHT AFTER you had a bout of psychosis so NOW you think we werent real AGAIN!

I mean... Me and my sisters (half of them are just men) don't talk about the system at all in here

Of course... Maybe it's because the blog isn't about it...

But it's good to just talk about it sometimes?- I...think???

ANYWAYS JUDT SAY IT IF YOU WANT US TO TALK ABOUT OURSELFES AND OUR SYSTEM

Keep in mind that while everyone has different ages, pronouns, genders, and sexualities, we our collectively lesbian and bodily in our late teens!

We would prefer when referring to a specific alter you use their specified pronouns, though.

The below templates state the alters name, pronouns, and sign off emoji!

Luck (Host) - He/she - ♠️

Age: 31

Roles: Gatekeeper, memory keeper, host

Source: Quackity of Hang Fire (a DSMP/Tntduo AU) Note: Originally brainmade, formed a "source" naturally which we then developed into an AU

Other: If there's no sign off, assume it's me, but I'll try to remember to add the tag. I usually talk about c!Quackity (shocker) and c!Tntduo.

Sign off tag: #♠️ luck of the draw

Cinnamon - He/she/hym - 🌼

Age: 18

Role: memory keeper

Source: c!Tommy of canon dsmp

Other: i talk abt all things dsmp. usually im the one to post aus or art of ctommy

Sign off tag: 🌼 cinnamon yaps

October - They/he - ☀️

Age: Ageless

Role: Internal Self Helper

Source: c!Tommy of unnamed canon DSMP au

Other: I like to talk about AUs, mainly where I throw characters into an established universe

Sign off tag: ☀️ october's ramblings

Milo - She/they - 📌

Age: 18

Role: anger holder

Source: generation loss, pantomime rp (look it up on twt! there's a hashtag!)

Other: ntm, dont try to parent me, dont bring up hetch, i love to talk abt source tho otherwise

Sign off tag: 📌 a forlorn gaze

Titus - He/any - 🔴

Age: 18

Role: Protector

Source: Mesh AU

Other: Ex-fighter, not comfy with people over 20 (sys age, body age doesn't matter). ALNST lover, likes concavenators

Sign off tag: 🔴 all eyes on you

Ozymandias - He/him - 🧨

Age: Late 20s

Role: Protector

Source: c!Wilbur of slightly canon divergent DSMP

Other: I sometimes talk about c!Wilbur particularly L'manburg era. I talk about Hamilton frequently.

Sign off tag: 🧨 nothing beside remains

Pluto - It/he - 🪓

Age: 20

Role: Persecutor

Source: Mesh AU

Other: I can be rough and a bit of a dick but I want what's best for the system in the end.

Sign off tag: 🪓 the forgotten

Ikaika - He/they - 🥥

Age: 15

Role: trauma holder

Source: c!tommy of molokai winds au

Other: i yap about my source alot

Shame to be seen

Shame to talk about it

Shame to think people might think we're faking