Jul 10
if autism feels like going thru life with only half a rulebook and DID feels like going thru life with only half the context then I'm a fucking improv god 100% of the time
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if autism feels like going thru life with only half a rulebook and DID feels like going thru life with only half the context then I'm a fucking improv god 100% of the time
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That hilarious moment when someone anons you an acedemic study on faked DID as if that’s supposed to be some kind of gotcha moment. O mighty anon of Tumblr, give me your wisdom.
my memory plays like a scratched CD
Meet Me!
Hello, its Roe! Mouse wanted to do our first intro, and we all thought it would be best for it to be them. Mouse hasn't fronted (solo/or for long) for a little bit though so I'm going to do the first one!
I love to be barefoot! I think we all do, but especially me! I really enjoy yoga, and by yoga I mean the WHOLE yogic philosophy, ethical practice, and mythology.That along with the movement and breath has really helped us heal as a system. It is very great for grounding/ being IN the body, for us. Some hate yoga and that's okay with me ;)
I love being outside, sun on my face, feet on the grass, wind in my hair kind of girl! HAHA!! I lovee flowers, and just ADORE animals.. I like to think they feel the same about me <3
I am patient and kind. Creativity, truth, and beauty are my values. I live for connection with others, and do that by listening to their stories. I love to lend an ear and a heart to anyone who feels safe with me.
I love having discussions and debates, sensible ones in person, and I keep a level head in most situations (if I cant someone else will front). I LOVE ART and MUSIC and DANCING and feeling good!
I do my best!! I don't feel anger and forgive too easily, so Mina often has to talk sense into me..
In my perfect world everyone would feel safe to be honest, and compassionate with themselves and those around them.
I wish we could all have understanding and be non-violent. So I do what I can with myself and those around me to make the world feel sweeter, because it is such a beautiful one.
AHAHHA did I mention I like to talk?? anyway!! here is my favorite color, some things we've made for me, and a mood board sort of thing from Pinterest!
My therapist keeps asking about how my "headspace" looks. I know some people have houses, and can see each other in their heads but for us we can't really see it. At least we cant remember while we are in the front.
Ive realized some people think/see their thoughts and some people feel them. For me I don't "see" the headspace but I can feel what it looks like
SOO I'm making my headspace out of cardboard and a bunch of random stuff I have so that I CAN see it!! here is a sneak peek.. it's not close to done..
The first photo is the front (there's a lott more than what you can see but its not done) the white is dissociation, black is amnesic barriers, and the colors are us.
the second photo is where my experience connects with my expression. sort of like who I am and why. It holds everything that makes us, us. Good and bad.
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I went to the mall today and boy was it wild.
I realized the reason I've always hated the mall. I thought it was just the noise that freaked me out, and the lights and all the people, and that does play a part but its actually because I switch HELLA
and switching is so exhausting. It ends up being like a tug of war of who is fronting, and then long uncomfy switches. I get nauseous and tired. It's kind of like a sleepy feeling, then it feels like I'm being sucked in? Not like a sudden sucking in but suction pulling me out.
Like I'm asleep on the inner world and they're trying to wake me up
switching while asleep is soooo interesting to me. does it happen to everyone? and how does it work?
I had this time in my life where I fully believed what endogenic systems had claimed and it had sent me into a heavy denial spiral. I had endogenic systems tell me that I was a “mixed origin system” just because my I couldn’t identify which trauma caused which alter to split. It caused me to ignore any of my alters who were trauma holders that spot around that time since I denied trauma could have anything to do with themselves splitting.
It turns out that I had gone through something traumatic around that time and forgot about it due to having DID. Now I have to work through the trauma I refused to process back then and it’s taking longer than it should.