♰ Lemon

"Hey please be aware that the term endogenic & many other terms they use are either derived from an ableist movement and/or are medical terms that they are demedicalizing. I can't control what you use but please be respectful at least."

"Well traumagenics take endo terms too... So I can't call it unfair..."

A TRAUMATIZED INDIVIDUAL USING TERMS MADE BY ABLEISTS IS NOWHERE NEAR THE SAME AS ABLEISTS USING MEDICAL TERMS? HOW FUCKING DENSE CAN YOU BE?

Curate your own experience. You don't want to see "endo discourse"? Block this blog and the tags related to it, it's not that difficult. We always tag these sorts of confessions with "tw syscourse". If it isn"t there, we've simply forgotten and we would appreciate having someone remind us of it.

You don't have to complain in my askbox, I'm not going to stop posting anti endo confessions just because you don't like to see it when it IS a a part of what pwCDD experience on this site.

Not every space has to cater to you. Block and move on, you'll feel better.

1. if you truly have a cdd, your entire system cannot and will not disappear on their own. final fusion takes very conscious effort over months if not years, supervised and aided by a professional (or multiple). mass dormancy/losing contact with the rest of your parts IS possible, but unless you have done massive amounts of therapy it will not look like “becoming a singlet”

2. if this DOES happen to you, consider the following

a. am i really a cdd system or did i misinterpret what was happening in my mind

b. are they really gone, or have i stopped listening

c. am i currently undergoing stress or trauma that could have pushed my COVERT DISORDER to return to concealing its traits

3. you cannot “endogenically” bring back your parts. if they went away because of recovery, you cannot force dissociative barriers to return. if you are “endogenic” and they never really existed, they never really went away. you can PRETEND to be parts that are no longer active, but you cannot magically reinstall traumatic dissociative barriers in yourself. cdds are your mind coping with and understanding your experiences in the best way it knows how. if your parts went silent/your disorder went back to being covert, your mind may understand them feeling safe enough to be heard again as you “endogenically bringing them back” IF you do not understand cdds.

4. attempting to do so or encouraging others to do so is anti-recovery. you are not required to be pro-recovery for YOURSELF, you are entitled to a degree of bodily autonomy, but to encourage others against recovery is wrong. if recovery for you looks like final fusion, it may be lonely and isolating, but you will not save yourself by pretending to still be massively unwell.

5. calling out someone for larping a complex traumagenic disorder is not the same as calling you a slur??? saying that you are spreading misinformation, that you are either severely misinformed and doubling down (harmful) or choosing to lie about your experiences is not the same as calling you “transandroscum” (??) trans people have nothing to do with this discussion, being endo is not like being trans, traumascum is a made up pretend slur by a pretend community to allow them (mostly white able bodied and otherwise privileged individuals) the ability to feel powerful and oppress people they don’t like. you are grasping at straws because it is in your nature as someone who benefits from a white supremacist, ableist, classist society to want MORE power, to want to benefit from MORE oppression without having to be oppressed. your victim complex disgusts me.

6. 'i used myself as a test subject to see if i could endogenically bring my system back and i am publishing my research' using yourself as an experiment is not a scientifically sound approach and is perhaps THE MOST biased form of “research” to exist. endogenic systems have not been researched because they aren’t real !!! it’s like investigating atlantis!! just because people say something happened / happens doesn’t mean it does, and we as a society know better than to indulge it.

7. 'how dare you call me against my own community. when fascists start shooting every degenerate I'll take the bullet for them, and even you' this is not your own community. you do not have a place here. you are not welcome here. when fascists start shooting endogenic systems i’ll let you know so you can catch that bullet for me, but until then I will be busy protesting and volunteering to help stop the ACTUAL fascists killing and kidnapping people in the streets.

8. 'you are a bigot and not a true activist. if you weren't a system you'd be advocating for all of us to be 'cured'' I wish DID didn’t exist!!! I wish there were no more systems ever!! I wish children would stop being abused and tortured, i wish those who already have been and survived had access to healthcare to, when they’re ready, help them cope with dissociation and recover, be that by functional multiplicity with integration or final fusion!!!

9. 'calling endos anti-recovery is like calling gay people anti-straight. Or women who have abortions anti-motherhood' Keep queer people and women OUT of this “conversation”. their real oppression has absolutely nothing to do with your fabricated idea of “anti-endo bigotry”. you are like the evangelicals of america who cry christian persecution. you are like heterosexual men who cry oppression at the first sign of being disliked. you are like white women who weaponize their tears to cry “reverse racism” when POC tell them they are overstepping/in the wrong.

10. 'you're gatekeeping mental illness from people you don't like' okay? mental illness should be gate kept!! it is not an identity for you to claim when convenient !!!

The ginger in question:

Like. It doesn’t matter if they actually have the disorder or not, if they’re spreading rampent misinformation and encouraging people to play pretend with a trauma disorder they’re being ableist. That’s not good.

This thing has been out of print for like, 26 years and some of us want to make chubby classic pikachu so uh... I figure it's okay to share bc it's kinda hard to get your hands on the remaining physical copies.

Bonus points: Aelith made some embroidery/applique files for it too

a -corpic identity for systems who feel as though their body is a vessel for their alters ; systems who identify as vesselcorpic feel as though their body is genderless and without orientation on its own , however becomes gendered and oriented depending on the identity of the alter who is fronting

Symbolism explained and an example given below the cut

If this term or another one like it already exists, bam! This is now an alternate flag/term :]

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It turns out that working 40 hours a week is just too much. Full stop, no ifs ands or buts. The tiredness and loss of focus it induces is enough that you're about 25% less productive per hour when you're on a 40-hour work week, and so the extra 10 hours a week cancels out. This effect is a little bit more pronounced for white collar work and a little bit less pronounced for blue collar work, but there's functionally not enough of a difference to care. And people who are working more than that actually become less productive in total.

The thing is that you don't immediately gain the benefits of being fully rested and focused by working less on just one day, or even one week. It can even take months to settle into the pattern of higher productivity per working hour, and that's frankly miraculously quick given that full burnout can take years to recover from. And during that transition you will be less immediately productive. Particularly for people who pride themselves on being hard workers and how much overtime they put in, the notion that working less can get just as much done can feel absurd and even insulting. Because it seems so painfully obvious that you get less done when you do less, and any experiences of being invited to do so feel like they back that up.

But it's true. We are all simply working more than we need to, pointlessly, to no benefit at all. It is an appallingly pointless waste of human life.