#ocd feels

having both bpd and ocd is hard because at the same time i see positive posts like "you're not your intrusive thoughts", "you're not a bad person" and "the reason you're thinking that is because you don't actually wanna do it" and yeah i get it sometimes it's like this for me but sometimes i just picture myself lashing out and hurting other people and i actually mean it

that OCD feel when u try to organize ur obsessive thoughts in a calm, rational manner but the list just makes u need to make MORE lists and introduces MORE repetitive thoughts and soon enough the lists are a compulsion bc if u DON’T make them you’re going to EXPLODE and that alone gets its own list of why you won’t really explode if u don’t make a list but you’re already making the list... so you’ll never know, right ? anyway better safe than sorry, make those crazy lists

tfw obsessive compulsive behaviors and hypersexuality are a rly bad combo bc you HAVE to masturbate when you get home from school

tfw ur hypersexuality feeds into ur ocd sexual intrusive thoughts and you get stuck in the worst cycle

when ur hs but have ocd and the ocd makes it stressful to do anything involving genitals like eating yr bf out or fingering yrself but yr body still aches bc u want it so bad

Thsfw you thought your extremely bad OCD was your worst mental Illness until it's pms time, which makes your hypersexuality even more hyper and you just everything is bad. I think this is what pon farr feels like.

haha oopsie responsibility is a big theme of mine isn’t it 😝