#bpd feels

you are cruel and cold. i will never forgive you.

I vent and sound bitter but it’s so I don’t carry it, so I release my anger and am left with only the pain, and that I will transform into art. I use substances so I can feel happy still with everything thats been done to me. So I can be kinder than life has been to me

To feel everything or to feel nothing, a fatal dilemma. For people with heightened emotions, the answer is obvious, but for me, feeling is a privilege I've never had, and apparently never will.

I’m creative in the sense that I’m always finding new ways to shorten my lifespan