Ok, so I got my shit done at work today and did my workout..but I’ll be honest, I feel like balls. Like my grandfathers balls; shriveled up and buried for 13 years.
I know everyone shares similar experiences and I should be working on myself but, I feel like I’m trying to be a dig out of an impossibly deep hole. I don’t have the desire to work, barely have the motivation to workout, and keeping up my friendships? Fuck, that has a worse fate that the Titanic.
Anyway, not here looking for sympathy or the quintessential ‘You can do it’ DM (if I got DMs, that is). Just trying to normalize that we are not rays of sunshine every fucking day. Sometimes we ride into the gloom on our Doom Buggy, hoping to see a car crash to make us feel better about our lives.
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Another Monday has come and almost gone, depending on where you rest your head.
Currently, I’m laid up on my couch watching the Great British Baker and dreaming of holiday bread! Oh god, I love bread. That’s like the understatement of my entire life. You know that meme with the toddler whose running around with a big stack of bread? Yea, that’s me.
I go weak in the knees over a homemade sourdough and faint right in front of you for a baguette (butter is required for full physical breakdown). I can turn down cakes and cookies and sweets all day long but if I make eye contact with a well made bread loaf..you won’t see my crumby face for a week! 🤪
Let me save you a struggle I’ve battled with the last 10 years. If you want the bread, eat the fucking bread! I’ve spent way too much time fretting over how many calories and how many miles..blah blah, bullshit. It made me an asshole, so please don’t follow in my footsteps.
If you are working out and eating healthy to lose a substantial amount of weight (first, fucking good for you!) create a sustainable practice. You don’t have to be perfect all the time to lose weight, you will still see a difference in the scale of you have a brownie or a cookie or a slice of bread! The key is to not over indulge, enjoy it and keep pushing toward your goal.
Health is about the balance between mental, physical, and emotional. That’s what we should be striving for, not having a stage ready body with PTSD from eating a white potato. (Don’t worry, I need to hear this too 😉)
Anyway, here is my workout from today. Remember, love yourself and embrace your journey. Don’t let other people’s experience shape your opinion. I love you too much for that ❤️
Workout 10/18
Push-ups (fucking hate these, but doing them so I can brag about my skills one day) 8x10
god i hate how normalized diet culture and shit like bmi and calories are. bmi is based on eugenics. calories are a measurement of how much energy something gives u and not at all of how much weight or fat ull gain. diets have been proven to be harmful and ultimately unhelpful in actually losing weight. fatness has been largely proven to not be inherently unhealthy and doesnt inherently cause health issues.
if anyone has more good links to add on then please do and if anyone knows more on this stuff than me then dont hesitate to correct me!
The BMI was invented by Adolphe Quetelet, the 19th century statistician who invented phrenologist anthropometry. He wasn't just a eugenicist, he was one of the founding fathers of racist pseudoscience. Please do not listen to anything he has to say about your body.
“And get this: While epidemiologists use BMI to calculate national obesity rates (nearly 35 percent for adults and 18 percent for kids), the distinctions can be arbitrary. In 1998, the National Institutes of Health lowered the overweight threshold from 27.8 to 25—branding roughly 29 million Americans as fat overnight—to match international guidelines. But critics noted that those guidelines were drafted in part by the International Obesity Task Force, whose two principal funders were companies making weight loss drugs.”
Adding my two cents to this post, because it’s something I’ve struggled with for a long time. As a personal trainer, it is so hard to get this out of people’s minds..it’s so frustrating! NO, don’t just eat a salad for lunch or starve yourself to 1200 calories a day. That’s what a fucking toddler should eat.
Are you 3 years old??! Then don’t fucking eat like one. Let your body work as it was intended. We were not supposed to look like the shredded bodybuilders we see on stage. Guess what, they don’t look like that 90% of the time because it’s UNHEALTHY! Everyone wants to look like Instagram models but that isn’t real life.
I’ve been OBESE by BMI standards since I was in 8th grade. I never had anyone say this to me, so I will say it for everyone.
YOU CAN BE HEALTHY AT ANY SIZE!! Just like you can be unhealthy at any size.
Eat your vegetables, get some protein, hydrate yourself, and live your god damn life. I love you too much for this BMI bullshit.
Today, I went a bit out of my comfort zone so I thought I would share my experience! I’m an extreme creature of habit and I have a workout routine planned in my mind for each day (not the healthiest, I know but I’m working on it 😉).
Today, however, my wife had some fun plans for us and she challenged me to let go of my ‘habit’ for the day and spend it with our fur family in the mountains! I am so glad I did!! She truly knows me better than I know myself.
My lesson for the day: Being healthy on the inside means going OUTSIDE!! 🤪
At 33, almost 34, I’m still learning how to navigate this life. Sometimes that’s hard for me to swallow but I’m practicing.
How do you ground yourself when you feel your world slipping away?
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So, here’s the thing. I broke last week. I am on a path mentally that has taken me way far away from where I want to be. I am working non-stop, I never see my friends/family, I don’t ever leave the house, and I’m depressed out of my mind.
Now, I count myself within the rational human category, so I know and understand that my experience is not unique. So many people struggle with depression and anxiety, it’s hard to count them all! This is the first time I have experienced something so deep, overwhelming and all encompassing. How do I cope, you ask? (or you probably don’t) Honestly, I don’t cope...but I’m trying. I write wlw fanfiction (that I will never publish), I read wlw fanfiction, and I slam heavy weights in my garage while trying to learn how to shuffle dance.
I guess my aim for this new blog, new name, and new intention is to show everyone that I am just a lesbian nerd with a deep rooted fitness habit and I want to add my voice to those advocating for therapy and mental wellness. We can all do better and if you’re down for it (along with badly placed Disney quotes), I’d love to join you on your journey too!
Also, PLEASE SEND WLW FANFICTION RECOMMENDATIONS! I can never have enough! Current ships are: Lena/Kara, Hermione/Fleur, Hermione/Narcissa, Clarke/Lexa, Diana Prince/Lara Croft, and any others you want to send my way! If you do make a recommendation, tell me why I should read it and why I should ship it! ;)
This is simplistic and intended to tug on heartstrings and all that shit but guys I really needed to see something about people not being dicks so if you needed that too please watch this.
Ninety-nine people are unaccounted for after the partial building collapse in Surfside, Florida, according to Miami-Dade Police Department spokesperson Alvaro Zabaleta.
2 p.m: Rabbi Sholom Lipskar, the spiritual leader at the Shul of Bal Harbour, the sprawling Orthodox synagogue just four blocks from the condo collapse, spoke to reporters Thursday afternoon outside the Surfside Community Center, which is serving as the family reunification center
[…] He said a vigil at his synagogue began at 1 p.m. and will be ongoing. He couldn’t give an exact number of the Shul members among those missing and injured, but said it is “a lot.”
“There are certain things you can talk about it but you can’t say anything,” the rabbi said. “No words can contain the real of what happened.”
Asked by a reporter how the Jewish community of Surfside can move forward from an event like this, Lipskar said, “Jewish people have faced adversity throughout our history.”
He said one of the urgent tasks now will be helping families displaced by the crash find temporary places to live.
- via Miami Herald newspaper
DONATE TO THE SHUL’S
8777 COLLINS AVENUE RELIEF FUND:
https://www.theshul.org/
via The Shul’s website update:
Thank you all so much for the incredible outpouring of support. We really appreciate your kindness and have received many generous contributions of essential items for the many families affected by this terrible tragedy.
As we are challenged with space to sort and store all the emergency supplies, we suggest that you use our website at
www.theshul.org/8777
to make further contributions as the need will be great and ongoing.
Our emergency hotline has transferred to our regular Shul line at 305-868-1411. If you have already left a message with names, you will be contacted with updates as they become available. If you have a new person to add to the list, please include their name, age and apartment number, as well as your contact information so that we can reach you, when necessary.
Our thoughts and prayers are with the victims and their families. May Hashem comfort and console them at this sad time.
The Shul
https://www.theshul.org/8777
At least 27 people from Latin American nations - including Colombia, Cuba, Chile, Paraguay, Puerto Rico and Argentina - are among those reported missing by friends and family following the partial collapse of a residential building in Surfside on early Thursday morning, highlighting the international reach of the tragedy in a region that serves as a link between the United States and Latin America.
I’ve seen very little about this circulating on Tumblr, despite the fact that 159 people are missing and feared dead. Sending all my good thoughts to the Jewish and Latin American communities of Surfside, as they seem to be the most impacted by this tragedy.
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So, I had a thought today and wanted to see how many people shared my brainwave.
Does anyone else want audio recordings of WLW fanfiction?? Like give me some SuperCorp fluff while I’m hiking up a mountain and a little Clexa angst while I do my squats. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway, now I’m thinking about starting a podcast to read them to my fellow WLW! Thoughts? Feelings?
Those two that just could not come up with any differences! They were like “we both got glasses, both got these red sweaters, maybe we’re different heigh- nope we’re the same height… well shit we’re perfectly the same!”
Whenever I see this video I’m always struck that the kids are so quick to say what their friends are GOOD AT or what their friends enjoy. They’re so quick to build each other up!
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I’ll try my best to describe this. It’s a video with a mash-up of a bunch of different Disney movies, set to a song that’s a mash-up of a bunch of other songs. That in and of itself wouldn’t make it praiseworthy, but this is DONE SO WELL that just, holy cow.
