i have a girlfiend and she is the most amazing and wonderful thing to happen to me. she makes me feel safe and vulnerable and genuinely loved and understood. her presence has lifted a weight off my shoulders.
she truly understands me in ever way and i her. i mean we are just so in sync and our conversations are always just us feeling "hey me too!" "same!" like we have truly found someone who just get it. her whole life she's been told her and her feelings and emotions are too much which just hits me because my heart and who i am is an endless resevoir. she will never be too much of anything for me.
before i had walls up and struggled with emotional vulnerability and being open and her presence just naturally dissolved those walls. ive never been able to tell people my true feelings about them unless i was drunk.
the other day i just found myself telling my best friends how much i love them and what they mean to me and what i think of them and it didnt scare me. all of it because she gives me the strength to be and the safety to be.
in the past i have had nothing but one sided relationships. nothing ever felt equal or that i was loved and seen and allowed to just be. but not with her. everything is equal. i feel loved and her words don't feel hollow. i feel the truth behind them.
i have met my match.
