My Shop l Ko-Fi l Prints l AO3 | Wishlist Renee, she/her, 40s, married, pagan, Disabled, queer, quilter, gamer, writer, watercolor painter, science junky, Dragon Age lover, progressive socialist Democrat. If you are a Trump-Humper, nazi/neo-nazi, racist, antisemitic, radfem, ableist, (LGBTQ+)-phobic, you have no place being here! Reproductive rights are human rights! Trans rights are human rights! Black rights are human rights! Before sending me an ask begging for money or that I share your GFM, read this. Failing to do so will result in me reporting the ask and blocking you immediately. If enough people report your asks as spam, your account will be closed, so think carefully before spamming my inbox with begging. I have reported and blocked more than 100 accounts for sending me these asks. Quilt Commissions: OPEN, April 1st to May 1st Background is a closeup of a painting I made. Avatar is my OC Ghanima Lavellan created by Lagunanegra.
It has been suggested I make a post to pin at the top, with some info for anyone who decides to stop by.
First, I have my most important links at the top, but if you don't feel like scrolling up, here you go.
My Kofi Page - here you will find my gallery, shop, and the options for supporting me. This includes a monthly option, called a membership. My Kofi page is like Etsy and Patreon rolled into one, with some extras, and much more user-friendly. Selling my work also reduces the mentality of my being a burden, and thank you for making that load much lighter for me. Pssst...my members get automatic discounts on shop listings and commissions, and some things are available only to my members.
My Throne List - this is a list where you can purchase items for me, and do so anonymously. I have quilt-related things, stuff for hEDS, egift cards, and other randoms. My being Disabled and my husband being the only source of income aside from my fixed income, I don't have much opportunity to shop for anything that isn't 100% necessary.
My AO3 - I write Dragon Age fanfiction, namely the smutty stuff. Because I can. Fair warning: I like it explicit and mixed with humor because life is weird and funny. You will need to be logged in to read anything I post. My account is locked in order to prevent AI from scraping it so easily.
My smutty romance book list - not part of the links, but figured I may as well share here. I love filthy explicitly detailed smutty romances. I'm also quite picky about what I like. If smutty romance is what you like, check out the link. Scifi, historical, historical fantasy, modern day/contemporary, and a mix of all of these are on the list.
Second, I have some details here for y'all since I know so many of you are a curious bunch...
I'm a Disabled queer artist with a focus on quilts. When able, I'm also a watercolor painter. My work is done Friday-Monday, taking Tuesday-Thursday off because those are my husband's days off. On those days, I game, write (mostly fanfiction), assist in housecleaning as my body allows, and spend time with Hubby.
I'm pagan and the pantheons I work with are Norse and Celtic. I'm a devotee of Cernunnos, and work a lot with Thor (patron god of the blue collar/working class), Freyja, and The Morrigan. Every home has spirits, and I've been working with those who reside in my own house. I love their company and it appears they enjoy mine as well. I do suggest you talk to your home, set up a little shrine with something as simple as a plant, a bowl, and a cup. Share a portion of your meals with them, explain changes you've made and why (like hanging artwork, home improvements, etc), and build a relationship with them. It makes a big difference. Call me crazy if you want, but it's spooked tf outta my husband when he saw how swiftly things improved when he apologized to the house and explained the home improvements and repairs we've made.
Some info regarding my style:
My style will never be called subtle. Bold and bright is my route. Even when working in black and white, I will make it stand out.
My personal aesthetic is cottage core, stained glass, art nouveau, and Hawaiian prints (especially the campy stuff).
I lean towards jewel-tones, which is why I really enjoy making stained glass quilts. Bright jewel-tones with the darkest black in strips between sections? Fuck, yes.
My favorite animals are housecats, snow leopards, clouded leopards, penguins, peacocks, and hummingbirds. In that order. The last two are the colorful ones.
My favorite flowers are daisies of every kind, and very fragrant flowers. Not a fan of roses though. I think they're overrated.
I collect teacups and fairies, with a big love for mushrooms, moss, and teapots.
Most of my quilts are small because they're quick to make. My primary focus has been on stocking my shop, but now that my husband has a well-paying job as a sous chef, I can focus on decorating our home and get to work on the quilts I wanna make for us.
We're turning what is technically the dining room into my quilting room. It's slow-going due to my disabilities, but it's coming along. The walls are no longer shiny hospital blue, but are a matte green and the ceiling a matte white. I've moved The Monster (my massive hutch) in there and will be painting it as well. the room with have The Monster to store all my tea-related stuff (I love tea), and everything related to machine quilting.
I have a machine quilting frame, and a domestic sewing machine specifically for it, set up in there for me to work on BIG quilts. They'll be put to use after the room is finished.
Fun facts:
We will be celebrating 20 years of marriage in 2026. Yay! We married at a renaissance fair in 2006, but the seizure med I was on at that time prevented me from developing many memories. I have flashes of the wedding, but that's it.
I'm epileptic and have seizures everyday. Thankfully, the Big Ones, in my case tonic-clonic, aren't daily.
I was diagnosed with hEDS when I was 41. My doctor genuinely believed I had been diagnosed already because the symptoms are so obvious. We've also come to the conclusion I have vEDS due to the severity and ease with which I bruise, the length of time it takes for bruises and injuries to heal, and various other interesting things. Unfortunately, the only way to officially diagnose vEDS is via genetics testing. My insurance won't cover it.
To make things more interesting, I have POTS as well. I get virtually no sewing done during the summer/dry season due to this. My sewing room gets hot as balls before noon due to where the room being on the more eastern side of the house. I have to get up at around 5AM in order to get anything done in there. Thankfully, it's only four months of hell. My tolerance for heat is almost comically low.
I've got other disabilities as well. These are why I cannot work a "Real Job." I do my best to bring in money via selling my work. Please, purchase my work. I know commissions and custom-made items are awesome, but they take time. There are many listings in my shop, with more incoming, and I can ship those off right away.
When I drop things, I, um...sorta scream? Not the sort that would scare anyone into thinking I'm dealing with a home invasion or violence. Let's just say that Telemed appointments have resulted in my doctors laughing themselves to tears because I dropped my pen on the floor or whatever. In person, this shit is so much funnier and absurd.
My husband is a DnD dungeon/game master, and his players have heard me scream like my previous point. It never fails to make everyone laugh.
He paints the miniatures he uses in his games, and I construct all the buildings. The only thing that stopped me from becoming a carpenter was my seizures. They and heavy operating equipment with sharp blades do not mix well at all.
Hubby is a professional cook. The only reason he doesn't call himself a chef is due to not going to cooking school. This man has been working in kitchens for more than 30 years. He is a fucking chef, and his own employer has said as much. It does make him grin every time I tell someone I have my own personal chef, though.
He is also my official caregiver and is even paid by the state. It covers our mortgage and a portion of our bills, and takes some of the guilt about being a burden off my mind. He refuses to say I'm a burden, and shushes me anytime I mention feeling guilty about being unable to bring in more money.
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Real talk, I'm a broke girlie. I had several thousand dollars stolen from me by my family, and six months later I'm still trying to get out of debt. I desperately need to get my service dogs to the vet since they're due for their yearly shots. Anything helps 🙏
Blue has been sick for about a week and lost a significant amount of weight in that time. I've gotten some over the counter dewormer for her as I'm certain that's the cause, but I need $300 asap to get her to the vet for a fecal test + meds. I hate seeing my girl so sick and I'm honestly so desperate at this point. Please. Anything helps.
Ebola is still spreading in several countries in central Africa. How did the outbreak manage to spread so far and infect so many people without being detected? This guy!
This guy, in violation of Congressional funding allocation, withdrew tons of international aid. The end of USAID was orchestrated without warning, without a wind-down plan, leaving critical infrastructure to simply collapse.
And if people dying of terrible diseases in ~ third world countries ~ isn't enough to trigger your empathy, maybe the fact that there have now been ebola cases in both France and the UK will trigger your fear.
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So listen i have this book coming out in uhhh 10 days and I am Worried about it, because it is a Comedy, and comedy is really hard to market (why????? it's funny pirates, what's not to like??) even when it is, yanno, normal mainstream comedy.
It is even worse when it is Unhinged Comedy That's Mostly Going To Be Funny To People On Tumblr. (For example, the main character being a supreme gremlin made of 90% memes by weight (examples: carries around a bag that is never called anything but his "little rucksack"; has a near-verbatim "stick me legy out real far" moment; talks about his metaphorical "orphan gruel bowl" which is a direct reference to that one Oliver Twist gif) because those are funny to me personally.) Unhinged Tumblr Comedy is difficult because tumblr is not a platform where it is easy to market things to people, because we are generally violently anti-capitalist and LOATHE advertisements and reflexively resist being marketed to for most anything. I LOVE that about this website.
Except for right now, because I have bills to pay and a cat to feed. So look, fellow tumblr gremlins, I am just trying to say that if your personal brand of comedy is laughing at the kind of jokes that could only be produced on this hell website, and:
you like pirates
you're queer and want to read more books by queer authors
you want your fictional queer characters to be a hell of a lot more Messy and Unhinged than they often are depicted as being
you're interested in seeing a love triangle (M/M/NB) that resolves into polyamory
you want books where the hottest character gets to makes Passionate Speeches about rebelling against oppressive institutional regimes like governments and organized religions
you believe that capitalism is the most oppressive institutional regime of them all
you think it's fun when two characters have been in a 15-year-long relationship where the vibes have been "We're Newly Divorced" nearly since day one
you believe that All Cops Are Bastards and want to know what to do when you get pulled over by the boat cops
you think the Great British Bake-Off would be improved with weaponry, ritualized bribery/coercion of judges, and elaborate shit-talk
then this book might be for you. Beneath the wall-to-wall hijinks, it is political and it is righteously angry and it is the funniest thing I have ever written (which is saying something, because I have written some funny shit). It's called RUNNING CLOSE TO THE WIND. Here's a picture of it.
If all that sounds cool, you can read a review of it here and the first chapter of it here to see if it as funny as I am claiming it is, and then if you think that it is, you can preorder it here. It comes out on June 11! Ten days from now!
Thank you for letting me market to you for a minute. Signal boosting would be very much appreciated.
This book has made me utterly fucking feral. It is like the author blended up tumblr's sense of humour and love of whimsical, chaotic storytelling, mixed the resulting goo with all the sex jokes they could find down the back of the sofa, and then painted a MASTERPIECE with it.
It's so funny and chaotic and big-hearted and chaotic and queer and chaotic AND it's also very very good at the character work in a way that makes me angry (positive).
"That’s what makes Zohran Mamdani’s election in New York so unsettling to the old order. New York City is not just another municipality; it’s a sovereign-scale entity. Its population surpasses 38 states. Its metropolitan GDP trails only Texas and California.
It is, by any metric, a small country masquerading as a city.
It governs more lives and more wealth than most nations. If democratic socialism — housing reform, public banking, equitable taxation — functions here, it obliterates the myth that such governance can’t work at scale. The fear isn’t ideological. It’s empirical. Because if Mamdani can keep the lights on, reduce homelessness, and maintain economic growth without catering to Wall Street, then the capitalist gospel collapses under its own dead weight.
What terrifies the establishment isn’t failure. It’s feasibility.
If it works in New York, there’s no reason it can’t work in Nebraska. If it works in Queens, it can work in Kansas City. And once proof exists, belief becomes irrelevant. The ship of democracy, fully refitted, will keep sailing — and no one can claim it isn’t American."
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there are a fuckton of brutalist buildings with incredible murals, glass art, and other colorful structural elements tho! media can't use those as an easy visual shorthand for a bleak dystopia or unknown lands whose main export is crime ofc, so they get less airtime than the washed-out, blocky concrete, but they exist
the thing is, in socialist states, there still were (and are) a lot of artists, art schools, and jobs in artistic fields, with less press, but often paid jobs. censors wouldn't let you put up openly critical art in the big institutions, could imprison you for criticism, and the stalinists and mao's culture revolutionaries did consider most modern art bourgeois decadence, i.e. anti-communist. some fled, some went underground, but a lot simply kept making art, for the people, but rarely for an art market as criminal as now.
Brutalism is in itself an expression of this: destalinize a bit and give architects a new industry for post-war reconstruction, a new material as flexible as reinforced concrete, and a mission to get ready for the baby boom, and you'll get both great art and some choice mistakes, unlike anything before.
but in many socialist countries, everyday art experienced a boom as well: you may have seen the posters for the space race, films or propaganda, but art expressed itself in the buildings, as above, furniture design, pop music, clothes, and there even were space vacuums and samowars - probably not for everyone, but for many who'd never had one. the focus on art for the people, and giving a lot of people access to the means of producing art, led to a sort of revolution in art, imo pretty close to what the Bauhaus had envisioned.
the shift to actually consider this art as art, instead of design or just the stunted remains of art under censorship, is still ongoing in (US/eurocentric) art history, with all the usual post-socialist and recent russophile pitfalls. "paying artists is a good idea, censoring them is a deadly one" could imply too much already, but I'll risk it.
artists starving isn't necessary, not even in Paris, and art lives on in plain sight and underground, even under censorship, but the artists who got ended or never started you can't get back. they may have been awful, or a van Gogh, but your taste, of all people and all ideologies, shouldn't decide.
might add some photos from an exhibition later, but taking a peek @sovietpostcards can give you an idea, and sorry, but not all sorry, for going history on a great joke!
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If you would like to have something handmade and one-of-a-kind, check out my quilts. As small as 1.5x1.5 inches and as large as queen size.
As many of my followers know, i had a severe hip dislocation in April.* This requires surgery to repair, and recovery will have me on bedrest for several weeka or even months. I have a consultation on June 25th, which means surgery may happen in July.
I'm raising money to acquire the laptop and lap desk i have on my Throne list here. This laptop will provide me with the means to write my book, and access to entertainment in general. There are other things on the list that will help keep me occupied as well. You may choose to purchase the listed items on my behalf, with the option of remaining anonymous.
In order to acquire necessary funds, i'm opening commissions. I will work on these until i can't. What i don't complete prior to surgery will have to wait until until after i recover. If you buy a commission, this is something you need to understand. If i have surgery this summer, i may not be back in the sewing room until this winter. You could be waiting for several months for your commission.
Now, that being said, let's get to the good stuff!
Pay What You Want - starts at $57 USD, what you receive won't be seen until it arrives. What you pay will influence what i choose to make, so beware this is a bit of a gamble.
Mug Rug - starts at $62 USD, 6x8 to 12x12 inches. Foundation paper piecing is an option. These are large enough for a mug and snack.
Single serving dining set - starts at $98 USD, and includes one placemat and matchint coaster. Foundation paper piecing is an option.
Set of four coasters - starts at $112 USD, with the option of adding more coasters to the set. Foundation paper piecing is also an option.
Table runner - starts at $246 USD, with the option of using insulated batting for this to serve as a long hot pad. Foundation paper piecing is also available.
Four piece placemat set - starts at $246 USD, with the options of adding a set of coasters and a table runner for a full collection. Foundation paper piecing is available as well.
Mini quilt - starts at $281 USD, and foundation paper piecing is an option.
Pine tree wallhanging - $292 USD, and can serve as an alternative for a yuletide tree. I have one, in pink, blue, and purple, and my ornaments are pins and buttons.
Potted plants wallhanging - $464 USD, and made using mostly scraps.
Just the quilt top - starts at $481 USD, with options for larger sizes. You will receive the finished top and will have to either do the quilting yourself or hire someone to do it for you. If you wish for me to use foundation paper piecing, pay twice the amount and mention you want me to use FPP and the size range. If there is a pattern you would like me to use, feel free to ask but I promise nothing.
*It caused something called a flap tear on the front of my right hip. A 4cm cyst developed next to it and just inside the edge of the joint. It has made it virtually impossible to sit upright for more tham 10 minutes at a time due to this section if my hip pinching the tear and cyst. I have pain tolerance high enough to scare my doctor and physical therapists, and the pain sitting upright causes is enough to bring me to tears.
My hip surgery consultation did not go well. They were more middleman than anything else. It was basically confirmation i do need surgery. They sent a referral out for an orthopedic surgeon. In a month, i may hear from them again about apirating the cyst next to the flap tear, and a cortisol shot to reduce the swelling. The earliest they can see me is at the end of August.
I was hoping for surgery during the summer. The weather rarely changes, which has my joints happy. Autumn fluctuates and makes my body very unhappy.
In good news, i have plenty of time to finish the wallhanging i plan on hanging in my sewing room.
We're still preparing for my surgery, which means
prepping the house, and hopefully getting a ramp installed,
putting together activities to keep me occupied, like Lego sets,
and putting money together for me to get the laptop I need, seeing as I would like to write my book. Currently, i cannot sit at my computer because i end up pinching the injured area of my hip.
I have a list you can order from and help me out here. It has the laptop crowdfund, ttrpg constructs for me to build, Lego sets, food, postcards and postage stamps (i'm active on postcrossing), and various other things. You can order them on my behalf, with the option of remaining anonymous.
Commissions are open, with ten slots, and will remain open until all slots are taken or when the wet season arrives...so probably October.
If you would like to have something handmade and one-of-a-kind, check out my quilts. As small as 1.5x1.5 inches and as large as queen size.
I will work on commissions as much as I safely can. When surgery happens, there will be a lengthy wait. Could be a few weeks or a few months. Snatch up a slot soon!
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I'm on social security, and my husband hasn't been able to find a second job. What he makes as my state-paid caregiver covers our mortgage and a couple bills. My SSDI covers about two weeks of groceries and one other bill. Before our current leadership caused inflation to get this bad, it would have been barely enough. Not anymore. Any help we can get will make a difference, and that includes reblogging, which is free.
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