Deep in the Fandom Hole

the act of trying to fit my fat, squishy body into something that would not go past my knees was embarrassing. but it’s doubled when i realized i was wearing the biggest size in that section, what was supposed to be my section. the look my mother gave me when i told her that nothing fit is seared into my memory.

so i cried. i cried because this meant i had to shop at the womens section. for some completely asinine reason, in my teens, i decided that if i ever shopped in the fat lady’s section, it meant that i had failed. at what? i still don’t really know. passing by the abundance of ugly, drab, boring clothes that the plus size section provided felt like i was in a funhouse, like this can’t be my reality.

but the pants fit there. i took no pleasure from this, and i cried again.

so that’s why i made this post. because the experiences that fat and chubby kids go through in dressing rooms is unique and so rarely talked about. i’m in a much better place now and have definitely embraced my fat thighs and hanging double belly, but i know a lot of us who grew up to be fat adults still have some pain we have to address and work through.

i took no pleasure from this,

and i cried again.

me:

dolphi!! i've been playing this game for days now and i have no clue what dolphi's gender is (same for memoca and fukami lol; will be using they/them until i know for sure for those three)

some books tumblr might like (there will be more)

yes ma'am sorry ma'am

more books for tumblr

mermaid dreams and fish opinions

as they do

get this woman some booze

meat

even more books (a shijimi is a clam btw. lots of clam jokes going on here)

thanks for sharing

strong opinions

shattered dreams

more opinions

best couple in the game (i love u lobster mama)

their half-lobster daughter (half-shrimp)

birds

ant will protect you.

BEST COUPLE

Sibling Rivalry

I reblogged this.

Day 11!!