TAG YOURSELF: PLAYLIST EDITION
have you tried turning it on and off? the world exists in grayscale, there is static in your head, you don’t recognise the person who looks back at you from the mirror. it’s 3AM and you wish you could just cry but you’re too numb, you have school tomorrow or maybe work, you’re losing time and memories
prozac side effects. you would fight god if you could, you have a splitting headache, you want to die, you want to live so bad it hurts, everything is too much and not enough, you want to scream loud and angry but someone you love is listening and you don’t want to scare them
hhHHHH, you’re making friends with the monsters in your nightmares, there is grave dirt under your fingernails and pain is so ubiquitous it’s almost pleasant, you’re 80% sure your eyes are bleeding because all you see is red but no one seems to believe something is intrincally broken in you
nicotine haze. the world is blurry, you feel the corners of your mouth turn up but you don’t quite know if you’re smiling yet, you’re drunk in a bathroom at a party, you’re far too young to be drinking, you’re far too old for this mania, this isn’t a masquerade but it feels like one, the smile splits your face open like a knife wound
i’m gonna f*ck god. biblical allusions, christian imagery, the kind of desire that feels holy and sinful at the same time, you think you’re in love with an angel, this terrifies you, you are the plaything of something non-human, this thrills you
songs that don’t have to go so damn hard. you’re scream-singing these songs while speeding down a highway, you have seven overdue assignments, you have a work meeting in 2 hours and you’re viciously hungover, all your friends are stressed, so are you, you grit your teeth, you refuse to crack