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Missing someone isn’t just about all the big moments you shared. But it’s also about the small moments. The simple things.

When you continually battle different anxieties and obsessions, your life becomes revolved around that. You no longer pursue your dreams & go after your goals because life is no longer about that for you. Life for you is constantly finding a way to ease your anxieties and find a way out of your obsessions. So you fall behind in life, way behind. You miss out, lose connections, you lose people. You lose track of everything. Life, goes on without you.

I hate the way people never let me be upset. I let everyone feel their feelings & have their moments. If you want to discuss the issue we can discuss it. But if not, I’ll leave you alone. In life we’re not always happy even if we act like it. We all get upset & hurt, it’s natural & it’s okay. But when people always try to say little slick things to make you laugh or smile, whenever you’re upset, and they do it incessantly. That gets irritating. I understand why people do it because I like to see people happy too, but sometimes you just have to leave people with their feelings. If you want to know what’s wrong, I can tell you why I’m upset or hurting, but don’t think that my feelings are so simple that you can just say a little joke to make everything better. My hurt goes way deeper than that. So just let me have my time & my moments and don’t always try to fix it. Just let me have it. It’s important to learn to take other people’s feelings seriously. Don’t invalidate people’s feelings because they’re not yours.

Depersonalization is just brutal. It leaves you feeling empty, confused and hurt. It takes you in circles over and over again. One minute you swear you’re getting better, you feel like you’re starting to connect with the world & yourself again. Then, the next minute you’re back to feeling distressed & disconnected. It’s like you never know what to believe or trust. Because no matter what you do, none of it truly changes anything

Experiencing depersonalization is like being in a different world. Where everything looks darker, less exciting and unreal. A few minutes ago you were human, experiencing human emotions. And now, you question if humans actually exist, or if everything you’re experiencing, is just a figment of your imagination

Depersonalization makes you question everything, all the time. You question your thoughts, other people’s thoughts,your feelings, other people’s feelings. It makes you feel unsure about everything & anything. Even the littlest of things.

The more you speak, the more you write. The more bold you become.

With depersonalization, sometimes I feel so far away from who I was, my memories & my feelings. Whenever I get a reminder of who I was, I grab it and embrace it wholeheartedly. Being in this state of mind makes me appreciate those moments

I’ve never wanted anything more in life than to just be free

Staying up late is my way of coping with stress

Quitting is the only thing I’m committed to doing.

One of the worst things about me, is that I’m always looking for something new, something better, I get bored fast

With depersonalization you’re always searching to feel, to feel the texture of things, the energy... everything

Yelling is often an attempt to break someone down

With depersonalization, I often think about what life would’ve been like if this never happened to me. What are all the things I would’ve done, who would I have become?