#mentally

It hurts

This falls into the category of questions that cause decision paralysis. I don't answer questions like this because I am incapable of picking just one thing. I wouldn't even know where to begin. The only thing I can even think of wanting to go back to is the birth of my child and that's just so I could watch him grow up twice. Obviously we could skip through the labor and delivery part. That wasn't so much fun. Maybe just go back to that part where they lay him on my chest. Time is just going so quickly, I would give anything to have it all back. But beyond that, there's really nothing else I care about. There's nothing else I wish I would have witnessed. I just don't care. I've seen enough in my life to know that even to see the most beautiful things you often have to see a lot of ugliness and it's just not worth the risk to me.