Welcome to Hell

I feel like even body positivity is too focused on, like, the appearance of the body. I know I became a whole lot happier with my body when I started thinking of it less in terms of how it looked (to me or anyone else) and realized, that, like…

When I feel cool breeze on my skin on a really hot day, my body did that for me.

When I step into a bath after a hike, and my muscles ache, but in a good way, and the steam all around me makes me feel like a flower blooming, my body did that for me.

And the hike before it, and standing on a large rock breathing the raw winter air seeing the power of the half-frozen river. That too.

When I’ve had a plate of pasta puttanesca, and I chopped and sauteed the ingredients and now I’m full-but-not-uncomfortable, and warm all over, and perfectly content, my body did that for me.

I like that im tall enough too help others

Im usually considered the cat whisperer in my family, cause im less agressive about attention

Im techy enough to help with things but not so much that im the family go to for problems

Im usually fairly good at keeping a calm mask on so random people dont question my sanity unless i want then too

Ive been able to find a community that helped me understand myself and who i am

Uh in no particular order/form, heres the 10 followers. (ya’ll deserv the happie n can do this if ya feel like it)

@hotcocoandmarshmallows

@imaverycatgirl

@tato-tahto

@moondrop-jellyfish

@internetinternalmonologue

@epicaurora

@i-probably-ship-it-tbh

@sunkissedspidey

@cinnamonjoinstheskeletonwar

1. I like how I am open and willing to listen. I think I’m helpful and easy to talk to.

2. I’m usually pretty good at schoolwork. Some days I can put in no effort and ace a test. I maintain good grades always.

3. Lol filler cuz i got nothing

4. I like how I can read really fast, and still comprehend relatively well.

5. Another filler because I’m a simple coded human that doesn’t really like herself

Shhhhhhhi didn’t cheat

@random-existing-hooman

@frayisnotonfire

@lumiicriesinthiscorner

@starkflower-stew

@cosmo-cyan

@a-dreamingflower

@do-not-fuck-with-moi

@the-disaster-raviooli

(Ack I’m bad at these lol)

1) I like how I can befriend almost all dogs I meet, particularly any large breeds

2) I’m always willing to listen to someone and lend a helping hand

3) I’m constantly in tune to almost everyone’s emotions, even if I just met someone, which weirds people out sometimes lol

4) Im good with young kids, since I’m patient and find ways to keep the peace

5) uhhhh a filler cause I got nothing else

@not-today-thx

@lumiicriesinthiscorner

@rainbowsnowflake

@homosexual-dino

@stressedandhomicidal

@morguenecrosis

1. umm i guess i’m good at listening

2. i always try to help if i can

3. im good at being quiet and staying out of the way lol

4. uhhh i like kids and im relatively good at taking care of them(way better with small kids than anyone else)

5. i guess i like some of my writing?

@im-just-trying-to-survive-man​

@ademonwithinternet​

@reddshifter​

@hinakosdreams​

@the-motherfucker​

@lee-blabbers-about-boys

@cosmic-bread 

@moonlitskinandcrimsonribbons

@i-am-your-parental-figure-now

1. I will listen and never judge

2. I will be a ray of sunshine if you want :)

3. I love getting plants XD they are my children

4. I think I’m very loyal and a good friend, I try not to push boundries

5. I think I’m funny, it’s my life’s goal to make you laugh at least once

@ahopelessqueer

@the-lone-witch-and-secret-room

@lumity-rights

@nonbinarychaoticstupid

@heckinsnekboi

1. I’m compassionate towards others

2. I’m pretty good at seeing the bright side of things

3. My family calls me a animal whisperer :’)

4. How weird I am, who else is gonna come up with all these shit posts

5. My imagination…(?)

@hey-its-escher

@gamity

@general-history-reference

@goosemaid

@welcometoawkwardtacoland

@black-matrix

@naturaldissapointment

@genderfae-skater

@hues-of-purple

1. I’m always willing to listen to anything you want to tell me

2. I’m good at remembering little details about things

3. I have enough funny comments to make people laugh

4. I’m really good at remembering and changing the pronouns I use for you upon being informed of them

5. I’ve been told I give really good hugs

Here ya go:

@transbian-uprising

@bookbingingproblem

@justa-otaku

@mothman-on-shrooms

1. I like that I could spend a long time trying to figure out something that has piqued my interest 2. I remember small things my friends have told me, even if it was from like two years ago  3. I can where a hoodie in 90 degree weather 4. umm I like that I can draw I guess?

5. It’s been thirty minutes and I can’t think of anything else soo filler

I like that I’m passionate about things that I enjoy

I like that I can talk alot about things I’m passionate about ,and very quickly

I like that I dont care what other people think

I like that I can sit in silence with friends just watching TV without a problem

I like my hair i guess

Tag time

Okeeey, 5 things that I like about me

1. I like using “dude” as a gender neutral thing

2. I like that I get random inspiration to draw from just looking at something

3. I like the fact that I spent a huge chunk of 5th grade wearing a jacket in a country located near the frikin equator (like seriously dude it’s hot, no snow, no anything to cool down in the heat except an electric fan, a hand made paper one when it’s a blackout in your school and hope for cold air and rain)

4. I like thinking about the future (and I mean both good and bad, to be prepared)

5. I like that I can draw and have improved over the years

Tags:

My eyes, eyelashes, and eyebrows. They’ve always been my favorite part of my face.

I can make one hell of a good toasted pb &j.

The fact that my voice can apparently pass as male or female, as some of my friends have told me.

The fact I’m strong enough to have survived all the trauma I was put through and am still kinda going through.

The fact that I haven’t given up yet despite really really wanting to.

Aaaaa tags,, um

My music taste.

I'm fairly well rounded I guess. By that I mean I do well academically, I'm artistic, a musician, author, and athlete so... Yeah.

The fact I'm able to do all this stuff with a disability and mental disorders and be successful, ESPECIALLY as an athlete.

My piercings and tattoos.

My sense of humour.

As for who I'm tagging:

People with “minor” disabilities who aren’t sure if they belong in disabled spaces

People who have rare disabilities and don’t see other people with the same disability, even in disabled spaces

People who’ve been told nothing is wrong with them even though is something clearly wrong that now feel like they’re just making stuff up

People who have been dismissed by doctors because they didn’t fit the image the doctor had of what a “sick” person looked like

People who tried to get help for their problem and are still waiting

People who have unaddressed health problems in general

Stop abusing your boyfriends and yes what you are doing is abuse.

Stop:

Yelling at him in front of his friends 

Hitting or slapping him when he does or says something you don’t like

Telling him he doesn’t have a choice when it comes to decisions that involve both of you 

Telling him he can’t hang out with friends because you don’t like him

Telling him to not talk to other girls even if they are his friend

Forcing him to spend every moment with you 

Belittling him and pointing out all his flaws

Calling him stupid or making fun of him for making a mistake

Threatening to break up with him if he doesn’t do what you want

Being emotionally manipulative and crying until he does what you want

Accusing him of cheating every time he’s not with you

Blow up is phone if he doesn’t text you every five minutes 

Telling him you are the must thing that has ever happened to him and no one else will love

Physically attacking him when ever you are mad

Forcing him to have sex despite that fact that he said he didn’t want to

Invading his privacy by going through his phone

Getting mad at him for changing his password and demanding he tell you what it is

If a guy did any of these things to a girl it would be considered abuse but since its the other way around its considered normal. Throughout High school I saw many girl treating their boyfriends like shit. Sometime even physically abusing them in the hallways and no one trying to stop it because its a girl attacking a boy. 

Boys: If your girlfriend does anything on this list leave her. It is abuse and you deserve better.

You don’t deserve to be screamed at, ignored, or assaulted.

Being passive aggressive with him when he wants to spend time with friends or doing other things 

controlling when he’s able to go out with friends

Breaking up his friendships with other girls just because you’re insecure

Making him feel like his opinions in decisions that affect the both of you are irrelevant and don’t matter

SENDING HIS NUMBER TO STRANGERS TO TEST IF HE’S LOYAL OR NOT

testing him in anyway in general without his knowledge or permission (example: catfishing! it’s manipulative and weird don’t fucking do that)

taking money/credit cards without permission to spend on things without his knowledge ( had an ex friend do this constantly to her boyfriend and she’d always condone it because “he’ll get over it” )

guilting him for hanging out with friends/family over you  and making him choose between you and friends/family

telling him “you don’t love me if you *insert harmless activity he wants to do here* “

being rude or mean to him in front of others to assert dominance or power over him

downloading apps to spy on his phone activity (yes, this is a thing “”regular”” people do) or snooping on his social media to see who he’s talking to

hitting him, slapping him, punching him, shoving him. literally how do people not understand slapping your male partner is bad. people tend to find this funny in media and society and its weird. KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF YOUR PARTNER WITHOUT PERMISSION. 

and let me add this. ABUSIVE TEEN GIRLFRIENDS TURN INTO ABUSIVE GROWN ASS WOMEN GIRLFRIENDS WHO TURN INTO ABUSIVE WIVES.

if you have an abusive teen or young adult gf right now fellas, leave. don’t let her use you to get her shit right. you’ll be so fucked up by the time she gets it together if she ever does and believe that most likely she won’t.  

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

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Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

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Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

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Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

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