do I dare disturb the universe?

-bottom growth varies widely. I've known guys who get barely any growth and I've known guys who end up with huge t-dicks (lucky bastards 🙄) it really just depends

-it feels weird at first, but it's not particularly painful. i would get mild pain occasionally when mine first started to grow but I've known a lot of guys who haven't had any pain whatsoever. it's really nothing worth panicking over, relax.

-it is extremely fucking sensitive when it first starts to grow. like EXTREMELY sensitive. i had to switch from boxer briefs to boxer shorts because the chafing was too annoying

-you are going to end up with a foreskin if you get any growth at all and you will have to learn to clean it. thankfully it's very easy to do.

-to put it bluntly, your junk will start to smell like balls. I've seen a lot of guys panic over this. it's normal, i promise you're fine

-atrophy is a bitch but there are things you can do to fix it. I've never tried any of them because i wasn't really big on bottoming to begin with, but I've talked to guys who have had success with it. just ask your doctor.

-while I've known a lot of people who have gotten dried out by T, i haven't really noticed any change myself so ymmv

I put it off because i wasnt using that hole anyway so yayyy who cares and now i suspect that it is the cause of some of the urinary issues I've been having (an incredibly stubborn uti and some retention) because it can effect your urethra and bladder, not just your front hole.

That list might say things like “Paint a picture. Go birdwatching. Finish that great novel I started reading. Call my grandma. Learn to bake a cake. Visit my sister. Play piano.”

it must have been equally terrifying for her as it was for the real nikki to have someone else fight for control over what she perceived as her body. the scene where she's sobbing in the corner, terrified of her dreams is now more sad than terrifying to me. real nikki, who has just been raped by her once best friend hurting so badly that it seeps into entity!nikki's nightmares. entity!nikki who doesn't understand why the thing she wanted so badly is causing her so much pain. why she can't bring herself to lie in bed next to the man who is the center of her world.

and the worst part is bear doesn't even seem to like her. she's trying so so hard; she made a lovely memorial for his dead cat, she waited for him to come home all day without moving an inch, she made sure to be the most doting girlfriend at the party, and he's not pleased by any of it. he seems disturbed and angry and scared and she has no idea what to do to make it better. to make it worse, he keeps asking her to behave like the original nikki but he was the one who wished for her!! she can't be like nikki because nikki was simply not capable of loving bear even a fraction of how much she does!

she can't seem to reconcile it; he wanted her so badly he conjured her into reality and now he doesn't want her anymore. she doesn't know what to do. she tries everything. she obsesses over him, she threatens to hurt herself, she gets rid of that bitch sarah who keeps distracting him and trying to steal him away, and then dresses in her clothes for good measure and he still doesn't want her.

and then finally in a fit of desperation, she makes the wish and for one beautiful moment its all perfect. he's finally looking at her the way she looks at him. and then he's dead and she's lost everything.

twelve episodes, twelve contestants - a mix of annoying middle aged sci fi authors, fan fic authors and random people off the street

a variety of against the clock writing tasks, big finish scripts, ability to interact with actors without shouting at them and challenges where you have no budget or doctor for an episode

judged by solely by christopher eccleston