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i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

OH YES YES YES YESSSS I DO I ABSOLUTELY DO HANG ON LET ME NERODIVERGENTLY INFODUMP

THE best dye book for natural dye I've found is Wild Color by Jenny Dean. The book is aboslutely a worthwhile buy but she also has a blog where much of the information is available for free.

The book though. Get the book. I'm serious, it's so good. Easily available on secondhand book stores and can be ordered by any book store for you. It's so good. Clear instructions, excellent photos, easy to reference and use, it's widely agreed to be the best available by weirdos who like to natural dye.

This is basically our holy text.

Myra is also absolutely incredible. She has a step by step youtube channel that is just. The best.

Clear instructions, easy to follow, cannot reccomend enough she's great. Her mother helped write and illustrated THIS.

Which is THE first and definitive book on dyes from fungi and mushrooms and also a must read.

Catherine Ellis is also an absolute treasure trove of knowledge and how to guides. I consult her blog frequently for specific plant details in temperature, PH, ect.

Never let the pot boil. Ever. Don't boil any plant dye. If it's an INSECT dye, like cochineal, you can and should just boil the shit out of it actually, but keeping the pot steaming but juuuuust below a simmer seems to be the sweet spot for every plant material i've tried.

Water hardness makes a huge difference with certain dyes. Madder root absolutely adores hard water, for instance, and will not work well in soft water. Cochineal and lac dye will not work as well in hard water and do great in soft water. Others dye fine in either, but the water hardness will affect the PH of the water and that in turn can affect the dye color. Hard water tends to be alkaline. Mine can limescale a kettle up in two weeks and has a PH of about 8. If I'm working with certain things and want a neutral ph I have to correct that with vinegar. Get some PH test strips you WILL want them.

I find that you get a good dye color on most things in far less than the whole hour it is often reccomend to simmer fiber in a dye bath, so check frequently and be prepared to pull the fiber when it's where you want it color wise. Black eyed susans, for example; I see it mentioned that you have to soak them in the dye bath overnight to get color, but I find I get a good color in 45 minutes in the dye bath every time no problem.

It was interesting thinking about this, because I never conceptualized it that way as a child. I didn't think I was under an unreasonable pressure of having my location controlled by others, because it didn't ever really occur to me to see the shape of that pattern as something that Could be different.

I did get lost, though. Or - by my memory I only got lost once, when I was 5, and it was very scary. My mom remembers... many more incidents. But in those cases I knew where I was, and I'd got there on purpose, and I came back on my own time. Most of them, I didn't even know anyone thought I was lost. I'd just gone somewhere. And not told anyone.

At least a couple times I knew very strongly that I needed to be somewhere and not have anyone know where. I needed to get away from being seen, being known, being circumscribed. I needed no one to be able to come get me. Those times were mostly when I was older, when I'd started to go more places on my own power - city bus to school and so on - and when that sense of being pinned in place closed in I knew the shape of what I was escaping. But when I was younger it was just something I Did. I didn't know it as a need or as a reaction to anything in particular. It was just something that was important to me to sometimes do.

And I think it's an interesting window into misbehavior in kids. Problem behavior, things parents tear their hair about, things kids at some point just.... grow out of, apparently. How much is the backlash of a stress applied elsewhere? Some constraint, which they don't have the perspective to understand as unbearable or even unreasonable, which is pressurized and transmuted into some reaction through some other pressure-release valve. I mean, that's not at all a new analysis, that kids 'act out' in response to pressure. But I guess I don't often see it applied all the way back to "normal" levels of kids whining and yelling and getting into trouble, in response to the "normal" levels of constraint kids are under.

Which is so much, actually, once you're looking for it. But strangely I think a lot of people go through this double-forgetting, while they simultaneously gain more agency in their own lives and more perspective about the world and about agency as a concept. They don't complete the analysis of the situation they used to be in, with the new tools. They don't track the shape of the behaviors they grew out of, and what they felt like from the inside versus what they were named by adults, and how and when exactly those feelings and those behaviors slipped away.

1. Do not do age verification.

Oh no I dropped my link, what a horrible thing! Sure hope this doesn't get reblogged until it reaches users from the UK and Brazil!

What with bucket hats, bare midriffs, and flared jeans having been resurrected by some irresponsible necromancer with frosted tips, I figure there’s no better time to resurrect some of my favorite Y2K fonts. I typically only see the same three or four pop up in discussions on the subject, so maybe this will be helpful to nostalgic designers. Click though for links.

Golly! That post sure was popular. I’m happy to share some more.

How does this have so many notes?

LVDC Cobra 4 (2000, Lovedesign Co., Freeware) Contour (1992, Device, Commercial) FUTU (2002, Fenotype, Freeware) Intergalactic (2000, BrainReactor, Commercial) Omicron (1997, Beyond Design, Freeware) Photonica (2002, Liew Keng Huat, Freeware) SF Quartzite (1999, ShyFoundry, Freeware) Republika (2000, Apostrophic Lab, Freeware) Unite (1997, Image Club, Commercial) Warzone (1999, Glitch, Freeware) Yagiza (2001, B-Rain, Freeware)

Wanting something requires dopamine signaling, but liking something doesn’t.

If you have a mental illness/disorder that affects dopamine, you might feel that you don’t want to do the things that you like. You do still like them. You will appreciate having done them.

Let your likes guide you.

(If you want to read more, here’s one experimental paper about it. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC5171207/ This theory called the incentive-sensitization theory was originally created to explain behaviors in addiction but can be applied elsewhere as well)

From the story:

We repeatedly emphasized that we were aboard a small 8-meter sailboat, but the response was the same each time: "We are a 50-meter three-masted sailboat, and we offer our assistance in towing you to Paimpol." We were perplexed by the size difference between our two boats, as we feared being towed by a boat that was too large and at too fast a speed that could damage our boat. The arrival of the Götheborg on the scene was rapid and surprising, as we did not expect to see a merchant ship from the East India Company of the XVIII century. This moment was very strange, and we wondered if we were dreaming. Where were we? What time period was it? The Götheborg approached very close to us to throw the line and pass a large rope. The mooring went well, and our destinies were linked for very long hours, during which we shared the same radio frequency to communicate with each other. The crew of the Götheborg showed great professionalism and kindness towards us. They adapted their speed to the size of our boat and the weather conditions. We felt accompanied by very professional sailors. Every hour, the officer on duty of the Götheborg called us to ensure everything was going well.[...] This adventure, very real, was an incredible experience for us. We were extremely lucky to cross paths with the Götheborg by chance and especially to meet such a caring crew. Dear commander and crew of the Götheborg, your kindness, and generosity have shown that your ship is much more than just a boat. It embodies the noblest values of the sea, and we are honored to have had the chance to cross your path and benefit from your help.

A few years ago, I wrote a post on how to torrent for beginners. It gave poor advice and isn't worth reblogging. Unfortunately, I can't make the thing unrebloggable, so instead I'm writing a new one.

You will need: A working internet connection A copy of qbittorrent An adblocker, ideally uBlock Origin Especially if you're in Germany or the USA, a vpn. I recommend mullvad (though make sure to use a p2p server).

It's sooo good

go to About:config find media.mediasource.enabled and toggle it to false find media.cache_readahead_limit and change it to 9999 find media.cache_resume_threshold and change it to 9999

additionally if you'd prefer mp4 to webm

also in about:config, find: media.encoder.webm.enabled media.mediasource.webm.audio.enabled media.mediasource.webm.enabled media.webm.enabled and toggle them all to false

note! this will limit video to 1080p