ThinkTragic

My feelings, thoughts, people, friends, families, love.

I guess I get so comfortable, and completely forget about keeping it alive. I get so happy to have them in my life, I get comfortable thinking they will love me for the rest of my life, they will stay. And then they leave, unlike they said. I just want something to last.

So next time I get to see my best friend he doesn't have to ask me for a hug. Because he knows he won't have any human contact until we see each other again.

As well as being someone who couldn't do something for the person that loved me deeply when they asked me, but did it later for another.

You, who love deeply, are not a problem.

There's nothing wrong with you.

You do deserve all that you asked for.

I finally understood it when I've been on both sides.

Some of us are still hurt, insecure and afraid of something too serious. We don't want to get hurt again. That's why we don't give our all.

We don't realize it until it's too late. We don't realize that what we need isn't another person, it's us that we need.

You who loved deeply, were just another person caught in a never-ending cycle.

"Yeah, I plan for us to live together next year, I've been dreaming about that since I met you"

Should text you or call you

Would text you or call you if I had time

Couda texted or called you when I had time but I forgot

But u left me, alone, bruised, bloody and weak in others arms

Quite literally, speaking of reasons

I already knew but still listened to

I know it doesn't matter as this is just one of many more that happened or will

We were both out of our minds but still, I'd never do that

You have someone, to love now, and you could say that the balance has been restored

I dreamed that I hugged you

I dreamed that I cried

When I woke up, all that was left was crying

Touching you feels wrong

Talking to you feels wrong

You feel wrong

I don't know why

I feel disconnected from you

I need you to hug me so I can know u are there

Fuck you for giving up on me when I needed you the most

I will never change

Me inside: "Yes BiTcH nO sHiT, u shortened my life by 10 years just by hanging out with him. I HAD TO RELIVE ALL SHIT HE DID TO ME I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO"

Me: "Look I'm sorry this happend to you, but it's gonna be better now, but I wanna stay out of it"

How do I tell him now, how do I explain

How perfect he is

How kind, adorable, pretty he is

When he cries, smiles, laughs, sleeps

Even when he's mad or angry

How do I explain, get it in his head, he should be kind to himself

Because, everyone else sees that except him