#real self

You are NOT a real Christian.

People “suppress” parts of themselves all the time—for love. If by “suppress,” you mean, “I don’t choose to identify with everything I feel.” I feel like screaming at my mom when she hurts me. But I love her, so I’m not going to say, “gotta be true to myself, gotta live what I feel.” Many people feel like alcohol is what they need and without it, who are they? Many people even feel like depression is “a part of who they are,” so they don’t give it up.

Don’t you understand? What makes something I feel fall under the category of “who I am?” Because not all feelings are good, and most of them aren’t even rooted in reality.

Your feelings lie to you all the time. Right before death after years of dementia or a terminal illness, a person can suddenly become more alert and energized than they’ve been since the start of their illness. They get up, talk, and their feelings tell them that they’re better. And the reality is they’ve never been closer to death, and they’re dead moments later. It’s called “terminal lucidity,” and it’s been happening since humanity’s earliest history. And it’s just one example of your feelings lying about what’s real.

So how can you tell if the things you feel are a part of who you are, or a cancer you need to cut out of yourself because it’s hurting the “real” you? That’s what you’re calling “suppression,” and yeah, it aches, but letting it grow and calling it “part of yourself” is worse.

Figure out what standard you measure “who I am” by.

A Christian measures it by Christ. Who He says you are, not what you feel you are. After all, He calls us to die to ourselves. What did you think that meant?

And a Christian measures everything by what Christ says. That’s how I know “the heart is deceitful and desperately wicked.” It’s how I know you’re right; I don’t belong on tumblr. I don’t belong on this corrupt planet anymore: “If you were of the world, the world would love its own; but you are not of the world, for I have chosen you out of the world; this is why the world hates you.” And it’s how I know what real love is, and it’s Him. He invented it, He gets to define it.

And that’s the point of this argument. To get it out in front of people that Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and nobody has a restored relationship with God, nobody can be their “true-selves” unless they die to their old-corrupt self and come to God through Jesus Christ.

But how much real self matters? If someone were to act a certain way in front of others, not because that's natural to them, but because they're choosing to act this way, would that make them fake? Even though it's their choice to be this way? Even though out of all the personalities they could act out, they're choosing this one?

What's the difference between acting and true personality then? People act different in different situations and in front of different people and yet, it's not called being fake. Where is the line?

Does true self even has any meaning? Doesn't true self come with the assumption that everyone has a natural personality they're born with?

But people are shaped by circumstances. By memories. By other people.

"Yeah I'm different from y'all" "We ain't the same bro" or "I'm this, I'm that" and blah blah blah... We all, at some point of our life or still now, were/are some impersonators. Like we pretend to be someone who isn't us. People tend to overestimate or underestimate themselves.

Pretendence.

We make a persona which is different that who we actually are, and stick with it. The cause for the emergence of this persona obviously is subjective. Peer pressure, the urge to FIT IN, superiority complex, sense of inferiority, to impress your crush or whatever it might be. Ok all this thing which i call as pretendence is fine but only with externality. So what about the internal thing?? Are we so lost in our 'Made' persona that we forgot to differentiate between our Persona and Real Self? Has the wall between it became so weak and shattered?? Is the line drawn so thin that it can't even be seen?? Are we lost in it?? Who are we?? Internally im talking about. What is your true self? Are we even true to our true self?? Can we see it?? Can we still see it??

Like think about it. The joke you think is funny, is actually funny or someone else made you think that it is funny? The dressing style you like to get dressed and styled in, is your choice or someone else manipulated you, knowingly or unknowingly, into liking it? We all know it but sometimes we need someone to tell us this, to make us realise, that it's not necessary to fit in. It's fine to have opinions different than others, to like music different than others or listening to just mainstream, to have unpopular/underated opinions, to be and do weird and crazy shit, to call yourself a fan of something or someone that you don't know much about but still like, admire and respect a lot, it's fine. If it ain't fine for you, then you'll feel kind of like an outsider resulting to feel inferior. This leads to some anxiety and then you become sad. Then a revolutionary phase takes birth in you and suddenly you start to like things that you don't. You slowly become one of them and in the midst of this, you somewhat lose your real self in it. Deep down, it's still there but suppressed. Reading it won't sound like a big deal, but it is. IRL it is.

Remember, the moment you start to be unfaithful and unloyal to yourself, you'll never be confident and comfortable in yourself. 'And remember, the place where you feel like you have to fit in, you are never meant to be there, with those people. It's just not your room, not your space. Never try hard to get in because once you start to try hard, you'll always have to try hard, it'll just never stop.'

Be true to you, you'll get all your answers. It should be about YOU. Don't lose yourself for anyone else. You are a different breed. A different YOU. Because you are you. You are irreplaceable. Everything lies within you. And believe my words when I'm saying, EVERYTHING LIES WITHIN YOU. All the absurd questions that lies in your head has its answers within yourself. You find it, find it in you. You have it all. You are enough. Maybe you don't know yourself enough and that's the only thing you need to focus on.

It's not about being sorted. It's fine if you are still sorting yourself out, figuring out about yourself. It's about being just you.

The blessing of being just you.