PRETENDENCE
"Yeah I'm different from y'all" "We ain't the same bro" or "I'm this, I'm that" and blah blah blah... We all, at some point of our life or still now, were/are some impersonators. Like we pretend to be someone who isn't us. People tend to overestimate or underestimate themselves.
Pretendence.
We make a persona which is different that who we actually are, and stick with it. The cause for the emergence of this persona obviously is subjective. Peer pressure, the urge to FIT IN, superiority complex, sense of inferiority, to impress your crush or whatever it might be. Ok all this thing which i call as pretendence is fine but only with externality. So what about the internal thing?? Are we so lost in our 'Made' persona that we forgot to differentiate between our Persona and Real Self? Has the wall between it became so weak and shattered?? Is the line drawn so thin that it can't even be seen?? Are we lost in it?? Who are we?? Internally im talking about. What is your true self? Are we even true to our true self?? Can we see it?? Can we still see it??
Like think about it. The joke you think is funny, is actually funny or someone else made you think that it is funny? The dressing style you like to get dressed and styled in, is your choice or someone else manipulated you, knowingly or unknowingly, into liking it? We all know it but sometimes we need someone to tell us this, to make us realise, that it's not necessary to fit in. It's fine to have opinions different than others, to like music different than others or listening to just mainstream, to have unpopular/underated opinions, to be and do weird and crazy shit, to call yourself a fan of something or someone that you don't know much about but still like, admire and respect a lot, it's fine. If it ain't fine for you, then you'll feel kind of like an outsider resulting to feel inferior. This leads to some anxiety and then you become sad. Then a revolutionary phase takes birth in you and suddenly you start to like things that you don't. You slowly become one of them and in the midst of this, you somewhat lose your real self in it. Deep down, it's still there but suppressed. Reading it won't sound like a big deal, but it is. IRL it is.
Remember, the moment you start to be unfaithful and unloyal to yourself, you'll never be confident and comfortable in yourself. 'And remember, the place where you feel like you have to fit in, you are never meant to be there, with those people. It's just not your room, not your space. Never try hard to get in because once you start to try hard, you'll always have to try hard, it'll just never stop.'
Be true to you, you'll get all your answers. It should be about YOU. Don't lose yourself for anyone else. You are a different breed. A different YOU. Because you are you. You are irreplaceable. Everything lies within you. And believe my words when I'm saying, EVERYTHING LIES WITHIN YOU. All the absurd questions that lies in your head has its answers within yourself. You find it, find it in you. You have it all. You are enough. Maybe you don't know yourself enough and that's the only thing you need to focus on.
It's not about being sorted. It's fine if you are still sorting yourself out, figuring out about yourself. It's about being just you.
The blessing of being just you.
Drop the pretendence and find your true self. Give it a space, a platform to shine. Shine so bright that it can blind any one and anything. Shine as bright as no one ever will and ever can.
