#did split

Its taken me probably about 2 years to get to this point and its taken documentation, constant asking myself questions and so much patience

These questions include

Who am i

What names do i resonate with

What do i look like inside

Where am i from

What do i remember

What is familiar about where im at, and have i fronted here yet(often asked at work or in my current home)

How do i know the people around me

Do i particularly like or dislike something

What are my base emotions (alters cant be boiled down to singular emotions necessarily but some tend to experience one more than others and it can help section them off)

How old are they

How many are there

Can they speak or are they semi-verbal, mute, or do they talk in ways that arent words(some use music or animal noises or just communicate telepathically)

There are loads of other questions and its not like i go through the entire list every time but things like this have helped me figure out a lot more about my system. It's about who affects what, what triggers who, and how everyone navigates the world and why.

What’s the funniest/most unfortunate/what have you time you’ve split?

I’ll start. Watching the new Mission Impossible. In the theater. With our mom right next to us.

The whole split didn’t happen during the movie (it didn’t stop until the next morning), but that first hour-ish of it was a //trip//

long story short we have an alter who is an introject of our abuser and we thought was just kind of only there as a means to berate/upset our system members because it’s what we were used to back home and ig was ingrained into our brain.

turns out that during this split, this alter kind of fragmented and now we have another alter (we think with the same name) who seems to contain all of our past anger and a lot of our trauma. the original alter just seems to be super fragmented now? like not even an alter anymore?? just like a collection of emotions and parts??

our internal communication has been pretty screwy recently because of a fight between alters so this is just the information I could kind of gather??

honestly no idea what’s going on so advice is very very much appreciated /g

[Hello, dear!]

[I split off just a few weeks after the blog was started, actually. Though Eli did not know about me until a long while after.]

However we do know:

He's related to Robyn somehow. In the way that we'd pair them together in counts and organize them side by side. We dunno what the correlation is but its similar energy to Kiba, Zim, and Wolf [in slight ways]

He is a king cheetah, the name King was considered. He has a big scruff like a cub who never lost their protective fur, and fluffy head hair that is light and has dark markings in it we havent perceived yet.

He's a sweetheart, remembers pain in the body, has an unfortunate addiction to cortisol.

But he also remembered space. He came out after watching owl house and space documentaries. We've been sensing him as we did JWST research. He commented about HUBBLE before we knew he was there. Still submerged in the liquid abyss, he saw visions of the Cosmosphere near our homeland when we were children. He remembers space.