#alter split

long story short we have an alter who is an introject of our abuser and we thought was just kind of only there as a means to berate/upset our system members because it’s what we were used to back home and ig was ingrained into our brain.

turns out that during this split, this alter kind of fragmented and now we have another alter (we think with the same name) who seems to contain all of our past anger and a lot of our trauma. the original alter just seems to be super fragmented now? like not even an alter anymore?? just like a collection of emotions and parts??

our internal communication has been pretty screwy recently because of a fight between alters so this is just the information I could kind of gather??

honestly no idea what’s going on so advice is very very much appreciated /g

My name is Alex📻, I am 21 and I am the newest alter in our system. I formed because of a split in our main persecutor/prosecutor which was caused by me not wanting to act like that anymore (I did so because of our childhood trauma).

My roles are described as a recovering persecutor, emotional part (for our anger and sadness at our trauma) and a trauma holder.

I love writing poetry, drawing, old cars, lace-up boots and binoculars.

I hope I will be able to post more on this blog, and get to know everyone a little better.

This is what I look like:

Thank you for reading and I hope to post again soon.

Best wishes,

I like to believe that this is him somehow taking responsibility for everything? or him trying to stay connected to everything by suffering through it, rather than splitting and just not feel anything again.

i’ll be honest, I don’t remember a lot of the correct wording or phrases for all of this, I’m a new alter and Noi is the one who had seen all the doctors and gotten the diagnosis and done all of the work with this, so i’m going to sound really stupid for a while! I promise I’m trying my best.

on on the topic of Noi, I support him, i really do, but I have no fucking clue what I’m doing at all! this is going to be me documenting myself hellishly suddenly trying to function as an adult in a life that isn’t really mine, and hopefully my struggling will serve as entertainment- or even education- to anyone seeking it!

shout out to the alters who are helping out, Jules, Leonard and Erik! you don’t know them but you don’t have to. they’re amazing

thank you so much,

with love,