hayden !

TWO TESTS WERE CANCELLED!

NO HOMEWORK!!

WE HAD A BREAK OF 30 MINUTES (we normally have a break of 5-10 min)

AND MY CRUSH ASKED ME TO WORK ON A PROJECT WITH HIM!!!

TWO TESTS WERE CANCELLED!

NO HOMEWORK!!

WE HAD A BREAK OF 30 MINUTES (we normally have a break of 5-10 min)

AND MY CRUSH ASKED ME TO WORK ON A PROJECT WITH HIM!!!

harry was made for being an auror.

harry loves adventures and that's something easy to spot. he thought that meeting fluffy for the first time was a great adventure and was keen on having another one. he felt quite exited to break into damn ministry to steal the horcrux from umbridge for fuck's sake. y'all really think he would sit all day in a castle teaching children? it's noticeable even in such thing as quidditch, this guy just has to move and do something. he would waste himself, his youth and his potential as a teacher.

he has everything a great auror (which he is) needs. he's very observant and notices little details; he always noticed all the little movements someone did and was able to connect it with situation (vernon pretending to read the newspaper cause his eyes weren't moving, hagrid clutching his umbrella tighter at mention of his wand, hermione having book upside down and way more). even right after waking up in gof he was able to say something bad was happening only by the sounds. he is also able to connect the dots: he was the one who had put all the facts together and realize why no one died from basilisk while basing it only on paper left by hermione, he realized bellatrix had horcrux in her vault by her reaction and he realized voldemort was after elder wand only basing on xenophilius' story about deahtly hallows (and that he's ignotus' descendant).

he's great at dada, good at transfiguration, charms, herbology, and even potions. at everything needed to be an auror. he's very powerful; his accidental magic was powerful, he casted a full patronus that drove away hundreds of dementors at age of 13, was able to stand up to imperius, even the one casted by voldemort himself. he was really good at duelling and managed to do it even with death eaters.

not to mention that he's really good at working under stress. and even though his plans don't always work, his intuition never fails. intuition told him to touch quirrell's face, to put on sorting hat, to destroy diary and way more.

he's brave, he's tough and works hard when the matter is really important.

harry WANTED to be an auror ever since crouch jr told him he'd make a good one. he mentioned this position during his career advice. he didn't even want to teach his classmates at first and you think he'd want to teach hundreds of students same things all over again and later having to check their essays? harry isn't the most socialising person and teacher works requires socialising more than auror's one. he would get tired.

and most important; auror's job is to defeat the dark wizards. to prevent them from killing anyone. you know how many babies lose their parents because of such actions? and you know who exactly knows how it feels like? auror harry potter. he would never let any more child lose their parents and any dark wizard to kill someone again. he wants to help people, he wants to reduce the evilness in this world. and after war, he would never sit back and relax knowing that death eaters are still around.

and the argument that ministry did so many bad things is one of the shittiest things i've ever heard. yes, ministry treated him shitty. and you know who else? quirinus quirrell, gilderoy lockhart, bartemius crouch junior, dolores umbridge, severus snape. what they have in common? they are defence against the dark arts teachers. almost everyone treated him like a piece of shit and that consists also of both ministry and hogwarts. but let's notice that the main problems at the ministry were fudge, umbridge, lucius malfoy and later scrimgeour (not counting corrupted ministry). all of them left by the time harry joined ministry.

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Feel jealous. Feel anger. 

I feel like I can’t go into the more obscure labels, because “there doesn’t need to be so many labels.” “That label describes everyone why does it need a word?” “You’re just making something up to invade spaces!”

I feel like I’m “cringe” for just thinking about using multiple of these “special snowflake labels.” I’d proudly go by sequencesexual, with “gray” tacked in front to emphasize how sexual attraction is still a rare thing for me. But then I think of all the people who sit around making fun of people for doing that sort of thing. I also relate to aceflux. And aego. But no, relating to multiple acespec labels is “cringe.”

I hate that, every single post I make, from the personal, to the educational, to the asks, right down to my tag ramblings, I have to go over with a fine-tooth comb before posting to make sure I didn’t say anything that would offend any allosexuals of any kind. All because of the shit exclus would say about aces making allos out to be “dirty” and “harmful” and “oversexualized.” While talking about ace issues, I have to pad everything to make sure I’m not offending allos. When you think about it, that’s kinda fucked up, is it not?

I hate that, when I first made this blog, I had to dive into the discourse tags to block the most active aphobes, but before blocking them, I had to go through their blog to find more aphobes they reblogged shit from, so I could block as many aphobes as possible. All on the off chance they take one of my posts and turn it into a “ha ha Tumblr cringe” joke. (Which they’ve already done to a post on my main blog.)

I hate how, the times I do experience sexual attraction, I got this one brain cell thinking that, maybe I was never gray ace. I was actually allosexual all along. Because, maybe it was depression. Maybe it was my birth control. Maybe it’s just my time of the month. Maybe I’m just normal, despite the fact I had never felt “normal” over any of my feelings regarding sex. Despite the fact my libido has always worked just fine even when there’s no one I’m sexually attracted to.

And all those aphobes and exclus get to get on with their lives, not thinking about our existence until something brings us up. Meanwhile, I can’t think about my own identity without arguing with myself over the validity of it! 

It’s absolute bullshit that I have to work to undo all this internalized aphobia they gave me. I should be able to use all the labels I want without fear of judgment. I should be able post whatever I want without being paranoid an aphobe will attack me for stereotyping allos, or call me homophobic, or some other thing. But I can’t, because all their arguments, jokes, and “hot takes” keep popping up in my head.

I sit here, telling acespecs they can still be ace if they ____. That they can go by ____ if they feel it’s accurate. That they can _____ and still be valid. But I struggle to believe it myself. All because of aphobes and exclus.

And I say to hell with all that shit!

intelectual disable autistic exist

autistic with severe issue exist

autistic who never gonna be “that smart” exist

autistic who severe disable in other ways exist

autistic who need help live life exist

& that OK. we OK. we deserve love & accept. we not need be useful genius who save day. is OK if you see self in those ppl, but not all us do, & cannot use them as reason we should be value.

AO3 is specifically relies on donations, rather than ad revenue, because it is the Archive Of Our Own, and is not answerable to any political agenda other than protecting and maintaining, again, all the fanfiction uploaded to it. there are checks and balances, and there’s a governing board, and they’re all dead serious about making sure that the archive endures any attempts by outside parties to censor or remove its content, no matter how abhorrent that content is.

the archive is an archive, not a social network or a platform. it hosts content and it serves that content to users in an efficient way–hence the phenomenal tag system–but it is meant to safeguard writers and their writing, not to profit from its users. it literally can’t profit off of its users or monetize their interactions in any way, just by virtue of its own structure: all money given to a nonprofit goes towards furthering that organization’s mission.

see, when a company or corporation makes money, it pays for labor and upkeep and then the guys that own the company keep the rest of the money, and that’s profit. when a nonprofit makes money, it pays for labor and upkeep and then if it has extra, it reinvests in various ways, like building new things or improving old things, or it saves the money for future labor and upkeep it might need.

the archive cares that users are able to control their own experiences of it, and filter out the stuff they don’t want to see. they care that users are protected from harassment. but they don’t profit from users’ engagement with the site, so they don’t do anything to encourage traffic the way a for-profit site that’s monetized engagement has.

hopefully this explanation helps someone.

Without noticing that there are…no ads on the site.