It's been over a month since that finale happened and I'm still grieving just as deeply as at the very beginning.
I can't listen to 'Time After Time' anymore (obvious reasons).
Can't listen to 'The Winner Takes It All', 'The One That Got Away' (too many edits and the lyrics work too well), or 'Glimpse of Us' (lyrics fit too well). Do not even try to play 'Purple Rain' around me (edits, plus I AM A STRANGER THINGS FAN TOO).
I'm still angry and disappointed. I counted on this finale to give me comfort and peace during a pretty messed up time in my life, and it only made it worse. I can barely watch a single edit without tearing up. I read fics, but they're only a temporary fix, because try as I might, I can't make my brain forget what happened on my screen on May 13th 2026.
People who like the finale keep saying "their love created our universe", but the thing is, THEIR universe already felt like OUR universe. Besides the Bible bits made real, it had all important historical events of our timeline included. The World Wars, the pandemic, the French Revolution. It used OUR locations - France, London, St. James' Park, Edinburgh. That's why they felt so close to us. Because we could imagine them everywhere at any time. We could imagine them being in South Downs right now, looking over us. We could visit their bench and feel like they sit there when we're not watching. It was easy to create when any setting could work. We could see a minor inconvenience and casually say that Crowley made that happen. We could see something nice and smile, thinking that Aziraphale did something good again. We were comfortable with angst because we knew that they would always be fine at the end of the day.
All of that was taken from us. The world feels empty now, because we still have the history of both World Wars, the pandemic, the French Revolution; we still have France, London, St. James' Park, Edinburgh and even South Downs. But we don't have THEM. We've never had them. Everything's exactly as it was but without the comfort of our guardians looking out for us.
All of that makes their 'sacrifice' worthless. Because we don't see ANY difference between both universes. There's never been one. Except that now the magic is gone.
I can imagine and fool myself as much as I want to, but my brain, my subconscious, KNOWS. And it hurts more than anything ever has.
There are some bits I like about the finale. I'm forever grateful that Rachel agreed to direct it, that the cast came back and got involved again. But looking at the mess the writing has created, I can't help but wish it never aired.
The goal was so simple. They could've just made up something ridiculous to get out of the Second Coming. They could've made them talk, made them retire, and that would've been it. We never would've asked for more. We would've accepted it and then taken it from there ourselves. We would've never begged for another season or movie, we would've showered what we have with so much love it would've made everyone feel sick. All they had to do was give them the happy ending that was PROMISED, to them and to us. We would've been off their hair. If they wanted to close the story so badly, if they wanted to finish it so much and never return to it again, THAT would've been a way to do it. They didn't have to erase them to achieve that.