(NOTE: this is my personal experience. I am not currently diagnosed.)

HATING being told I was "as good as everyone else." i SEETHED hearing that. I didn't want to be "as good as-" I wanted to be BETTER.

hating HATING everyone who did better than me- they must've cheated. It's not fair.

if someone criticises me, they didn't get the full picture. they'd LOVE me if they did.

constantly feeling like an outsider but ONLY liking people I could see as the same as me. everyone else is a piece of shit.

constantly trying to present myself publicly with a "confident" posture and use "fancy" words to seem more intelligent

exaggerating my self hatred for sympathy and compliments, getting pissed when people don't compliment me for that

I genuinely can't understand why would they not just stop caring about their mother if she won't accept them. If my mother didn't want me I'd just not want her either.

They said they wanted to die and I was so confused, do people actually care about their parents all that much?

I dont want them to die but I can't really comfort them properly and I'm afraid they might think I don't care about them or that I sound too insensitive because It's their life on the line.

StPD + OCD + (questioning) NPD Culture is, “smile! You are being filmed!” I am doing my best (odd) performance, even when there is no one physical around. I can’t even think a certain way or the “audience” will hear it.

— 🧸🫐.