being a stereotypical narcissist is so fascinating. like,
yeah I entirely lack empathy, sympathy, and compassion. I only desire to help people for my own benefit. I'm amoral and don't want to "try to fix that." I don't care about others unless they prove to be worth that energy. I'm more concerned with myself than anyone else.
yes, I use social tactics to get what I want from people. I avoid direct conflict if I think someone is going to be useful to me in the future. I view myself as being above everyone without question. most of my interpersonal relationships are shallow and transactional. I'm spiteful and mean when I can get away with it.
I'm vain, selfish, jealous, possessive, overly concerned with appearances; I take more than I give, am individualistic, am hateful toward the general population, and resent people who have what I want.
and yet, so many people have told me that I've helped them through rough spots, given them hope, inspired them. I've even been an ideal as to what to aspire to be like. they trust my judgement on so many things that they'll come to me for help or opinions.
people see me as generous, kind, helpful, as someone to confide in and rely on. I'm the one people come to when they need someone to just accept them for who they are.
even with all the traits people demonize, I'm still seen as a person who does good. wild how that works huh.
it's almost like ableists don't know that it's how you TREAT people that matters, more than your feelings or intentions behind the action.
