i wasn't decked

My last post didn’t get that many transaction , So I’m creating  new post. I recently got out of a abusive relationship and I need help getting back on my feet.  I don’t like to make posts like this but I’m really in need. I need to pay a few bills, need to get some cleaning and hygiene products and cat food and litter for my cat. My goal is to raise 800 dollars to get me by for the rest of this month into next month. I have a job set up for me to start at the end of February. Since it’s at a nursing home I have to take a few steps  like get a covid test , get a tb test and pass a drug test. before I can start working. please consider donating  even if it’s one cent anything helps. 

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now, not everything people self-medicate for actually has a proper treatment. i’m pretty sure the reason my uncle made sure to be slightly drunk at all times ‘to round the sharp corners off of things’ was sensory processing disorder. i have that too, and i just kind of accept that i’m going to randomly get my brain sandpapered from time to time. there is no medication for that. all you can do is dull your senses. i’ve chosen not to, but i can’t blame him for his decisions. when a ringing phone feels like getting hit upside the head with a frying pan, liver damage sounds like a fair price to pay.

anyway, it seems really self-evident to me that people don’t enjoy living the life of an addict, they do it because the alternative looks worse. people don’t get addicted to substances just for funsies. they start making a habit of taking something because of insomnia, or grief, or headaches, or depression, or seething undirected rage and terror they can’t put a name to – something that they can’t ignore or shrug off. and for whatever reason – lack of access, lack of knowlege, lack of money, or it just plain doesn’t exist – they aren’t able to apply the Approved Correct Remedy. they use what they can get.

‘stares into distance, takes a long drag off of what is, if you look closely, in fact a candy cigarette’

what if I told you…that saffron…is actually not that hard to grow at home for your own use. 

Oh look a place you can buy the bulbs. 

If you live in a climate colder than zone 6…as I do…plant them in containers and move the containers into a basement or garage during the winter. 

Seriously, here’s a saffron farm in the desert of Afghanistan, and the saffron is happy as shit there. 

Zone 6 means that the minimum expected temperature will not get below -10F. 

Here is a gardening zone map of the USA. 

I’m in zone 5, supposedly, right on the tip of Iowa’s nose where it bumps out into Illinois, but more realistically given our not-uncommon cold snaps here we’re about a zone 4. 

Second: I can’t speak to most of the US but if you’re on the CO front range and put Saffron in the ground, you’re going to have Saffron forever.  It’s literally coming up out of my parent’s lawn and has completely overrun a neighbor’s garden.  This is the opposite of a problem.

Third: Bees love it.  Honeybees, bumblebees, little bees and big bees.  Late-season butterflies and moths love it too.  support your local pollinators.

What could have given the modern Republican party a spine, you ask? Well, it was those darn Black people of course! The Black Panther Party to be exact.

Long story short, the Panthers, in response to police brutality and systemic oppression, Panters urged Black people to arm themselves and to protect their own neighborhoods. They showed up to the state house with their rifles and handguns...

And faster than you can reload a fully automatic weapon, Reagan and the NRA were like, oh, Hell no! We need Gun Control! And that became the Mulford Act of 1967 which banned the open carrying of firearms. Go figure.

Bottom line, if it benefits the white supremacist power structure, this country can and will do anything. Big sigh. The hypocrisy is mind numbing.

And that's today's, The More You Know.

Manifesting this tomorrow

EDIT Nov 7:

They have been hit EXTREMELY hard and I have seen no posts going around talking about it. It is one of the hardest hit places in ARIZONA, a state that already has horribly high case numbers.

They have a Covid relief gofundme. Please donate if you can and spread this if you can't.

Reblogging October 3rd, 2020