The Insanity Continues

I use my TikTok as a blog of sorts. I first opened my account because my daughter kept sending me vids. Then I started using it to track my efforts to clean my house and my weight loss. Now I use it for whatever.

My daughter got engaged in October 2022 and at Christmas, I asked if she wants me walk her down the aisle since she's no contact with her father. She just about snapped my head off saying that no one is going to give her away because that's an outdated misogynistic tradition and she's not someone's property to be given away. She then talked to my sister-in-law and asked my dad to walk her down the aisle.

I posted about how that hurt my feelings, along with other things in regards to her wedding. Everyone tore me apart saying it's not about me. I never said it was. I stressed that I was hurt that she seemed to be excluding me from special mother/daughter moments.

Then someone sent her my vids; right before Mother's Day.

Last week, we went for her first dress fitting and when we were talking about the rehearsal dinner, her mother-in-law reminded us that it's about my daughter and son-in-law.

A couple of days later, she called my mother to apologize. My mother accepted on my behalf. I don't feel like she had anything to apologize for, not to mention, my mother has no right accepting an apology for me. Especially when I wasn't given the apology.

I posted about that. And someone sent that vid to my daughter. My mother called and yelled at me for airing our family business right after telling me that she understands I need a place to vent.

Sorry, bitch, you don't get to tell em what I can and can't do on MY platform.

So, that is why I'm not on TikTok much anymore, either. Someone out that keeps stirring up trouble with me and my family. If I could figure out who it is, they would be blocked so fast.

Now, on to the rant I started this post for.

Last February, I moved into my current apartment. Shortly after I moved in, I became friends with a woman who lives in the next building. She has been unemployed almost the whole time I've lived here and has had difficulty finding/keeping a job.

Tuesday morning she called me and said she was in an accident. I have already figured out that she's a bit of a drama queen so I was thinking it wasn't very serious. But since I work from home, I was able to go and get her. I could see where her accident happened as I crossed the bridge from our buildings and I could see there was a cop car there.

When I pulled up, I still didn't think it was very serious. It looked like she had been run off the road and into a field and got stuck in the mud. As I got closer, I could see some damage but still didn't think it was that bad.

Until I walked around to the driver's side.

The front axle is completely broken.

She told me that a woman began driving erratically because she didn't like how slowly (at least the speed limit) my friend was driving and at one point, the other woman just stopped in the middle of the road (they were on the service road). When my friend tried to swerve around her (she later said the woman clipped her car causing her to go into a spin but I don't remember seeing any damage to the passenger side), she hit the retaining wall and spun around, ending up in the field.

Being a firm believer in paying it forward, I offered to help her when and where I can, mostly by driving her to run some errands.

Unfortunately, she has been running me ragged ever since, calling and texting almost constantly.

She has horrible grammar that makes my eye twitch and my head hurt trying to read her texts.

And she is so fucking scatterbrained (I think this might be why she's having trouble keeping a job)! I took her to the library yesterday to print off some paperwork she needs to food stamps and she asked me to keep track of the paperwork but then wanted to go through it despite my telling her I had all she needed and it was all in order.

She also will interrupt someone who's talking to start talking about a totally different topic. I've gotten to where I just keep talking, she will stop after a couple of words when I do that.

She is also computer illiterate, and yet she has a TikTok? (and that's another reason I'm ranting here, I don't want to hurt her feelings because she has already said she wishes she had died in the accident multiple times).

Thursday, I didn't respond to her texts right away and she started asking if I was angry with her. And whenever I hesitate to take her somewhere, or do something for her, she thinks I'm angry with her.

While I'm not angry with her, I am growing tired of her emotional neediness. But there isn't anyone else in her life that is willing to help her. Her son doesn't live that far away, but he has yet to come check on her. She has several men who will booty call her but none of them are willing to help now that she needs it.

As of right now, she needs between $4000 and $5000 to get a car and avoid eviction.