Update 7/19: I've been letting the depression and existentialism win the last couple days. I've been feeling really burnt out with the bullshit in my life, and with trying to walk around acting like it doesn't hurt. I'm unemployed and still feel like I have to keep the "customer service mode" on every minute of the day in case someone irl asks loaded questions like "how are you feeling" or "what's your short term goals" because most days I don't have the energy to answer those things. my short term goal is to survive? isn't that everyone's?
I was still a little productive this weekend. I went through the rounds of applications that expired in the last month so I could re-apply. I've been doing that every weekend, but doing it while I mentally felt like shit did actually help me feel slightly better? when the mean voice in my head tries to ask "why are you even trying?" my answer is usually "I don't know! I like living under a roof and eating, so I'm trying anyway, so shut up!"
tomorrow I'll be calling around trying to get more interviews for this week. I pay for the room on Fridays, so anything helps!
My name is Taylor/Taykout (he/him, 35) and I'm trying to climb my way out of homelessness. An injury… Taykout McCleod needs your support for
