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hello!! I am making a rewrite of a. Very very bad comic. Now, my MC is a disabled trans woman (knee chronic pain sustained from a pretty mundane highschool track injury, im not one to do tragic disability storylines, seeing as Iām physically disabled and that trope sucks). This ask isnāt about her, though. Iām planning to add a sort of cameo of a main character from the original comic, Shanzay (the comic spelled it Shanzey but no ethnic group actually spells it that way, so⦠white ass comic writer). Her original disability is caused from. Ableist trope after ableist trope. Itās not gonna come up how she was disabled, since itās a cameo of my MC helping her and her girlfriend with furniture around their house, basically a plot device for her to tell her about the club the MC and her friends are gonna visit, which causes the main inciting incident of the story. I would, however, like to change how her disability happened, even if it comes up, because itās REALLY handing itself over to the ablebodied gaze (essentially, perfectly vertical eye scar and cataract caused by abusive father doing unspecified thing to her eye that only her mom is traumatized by, not her apparently). If yāall can come up with either really stupid mundane accidents to cause it or a way to draw the scar so that itās not stupid and unrealistic lmk š to clarify my physical disability is POTS, and very likely but undiagnosed reproductive disabilities, so I donāt have the experience that people with half blindness or other eye related disabilities might here
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So the perfectly vertical scar is unrealistic for a couple of reasons. Main one is that very few scars are perfectly pointed in any direction, especially not traumatic ones (surgical ones might be but I'm not familiar with any procedure that leaves a vertical scar through someone's eye). Second, for the eye specifically, it just doesn't make sense anatomically (?) since eyes tend to be set deeper in the skull so that this exact thing doesn't happen - they're sitting in two big holes surrounded by bone. The third is that if someone did actually get slashed in a face with enough force to make the second point irrelevant they'd likely either die or have something much more significant happen to them (behind eye is where the brain is stored, so...). Or at least lose the eye, since the globe just got cut in half.
With this in mind, you have a few options.
A: Leave both the monocular blindness, scar, and backstory in and just make it make more sense. For example, maybe she was hit (can fit the original cause) and had an orbital fracture (can leave a scar or just general asymmetry in the area), it got infected and she started having eye problems (endogenous endophthalmitis). I'm honestly not sure how probable cataracts would be here since it's really mostly a progressive condition, but if she was to receive some sort of trauma to the lens then a cataract could form there. Just keep in mind that other things would probably happen as well, it'd be impressive to hit only one specific eye structure (whilst doing it hard enough to cause a permanent problem).
B: Leave the cataract and scar. Hell, they can be unrelated. Maybe she developed the cataract as she grew older and also had a scar from, IDK, (there really isn't anything that results in that kind of scar so cut me some slack) a laceration from some machinery that she had when she was younger and had to get it stitched up, which left a more-or-less vertical scar. Keep in mind that if she has an eyelid scar, that will affect its functioning - for example, if it sticks out, she might not be able to fully open the eyelid.
C: Leave the cataract and give her a more common kind of scar instead. This is easy since literally any scar will be more common. Some ideas; hit the forehead on the roof of a car while getting in, had a tumor that had to be removed, born with a facial cleft, got a really bad skin infection, had meningitis, boiling water fell from a stove top, needed brain surgery, born with (anterior) encephalocele, minor injury that she kept picking on and it healed poorly, family dog bit her, broken nose from getting accidentally elbowed in the face by someone, car crash where she hit the dashboard with her head, part of skin had to be removed due to skin cancer... The choice is yours. Literally anything would be more realistic and interesting (since the vertical eye scar is just treated as a visual quirk the same way a mole is rather than a Thing caused by Something most of the time and a Thing caused exclusively by swordfighting the rest of the time).
As to drawing it, you probably could make the scar either less extensive with the same severity (e.g., only shows on the brow bone and cheek) or make it more severe with the same extensiveness (it does show up on the eyelids and general eye area, but there is visible asymmetry, skin/bone indentation, ptosis, etc.).
The thing below is something I drew really quickly right now for reference, IDK how helpful it is but just be aware that the way eyes are placed in the face is designed to specifically avoid things getting into them. So if you're bypassing that, the actual structure of the face has probably been changed.
ok so. iām not really that bothered by this, i just find it to be an interesting phenomenon thatās worthy of discussion. in many discussions about transmisogyny, the avenue through which many people legitimize transfemininity is comparisons to cis womanhood. for example, some of these tags on a recent post of mine discussing transmisogynistic caricature:
i donāt think any of this is incorrect or disrespectful to point outā because yes, a LOT of cis women share traits with trans women. it makes sense! both cis women and trans women are women, and there will obviously be a lot of crossover in experiences. many women, cis and trans, are subject to violence and degendering for having traits that society associates with āmalenessāā the conception of which is inextricably tied to white supremacy and european beauty standards.
but the unspoken assumption in a lot of these well-meaning tags is that trans women sharing traits with cis women is what makes them women. this line of reasoning, while clearly not malicious, still implicitly associates womanhood with sex assigned at birth. that is dangerous for all trans people, and ends up making many trans women feel that their acceptance and legitimacy as women is conditional on the basis that they share a majority of traits with cis women.
i am all for finding common ground between cis and trans women, and love sharing experiences with my cis women friends and realizing how similar we are. but in discussions that specifically center transmisogyny, i think it is important to consider the pitfalls of using cis womanhood, or worse, the quality of having been AFAB (i fucking loathe the language around sex assignment and how frequently itās weaponized against and used to misgender trans and intersex people, but it does come up frequently in these discussions, so iām reluctantly using it here) as the metric by which the legitimacy of trans womanhood is measured.
at the end of the day, iām not a woman because some cis women share my broad shoulders or adamās apple or deep voice or whatever. iām a woman because of my material relationship to patriarchy, and my expression and assertion of my womanhood. again, disclaimer, iām not upset or offended by any of these commentsā they just got me thinking about how we conceive of and discuss transfeminity, and how we might move towards a more materially-rooted and liberatory understanding of what it means to be a trans woman.
love love love this way too much to keep hidden in the tags, i hope you donāt mind me highlighting your tags and rambling a bit lol
womanhood (much of this applies to gender writ large, but iām focusing on womanhood here) is, to me, something that is performed, practiced, and embodied by an individual every moment of every day, and the positionality of āwomanā emerges as a result of those interactions with the outside world and society. the tautology of ātrans women are women because they are womenā is unhelpful because it denies further inquiry and analysis into what it actually means to move through the world as a trans woman. itās a thought-terminating cliche. trans women are women because we perform and embody our womanhood every day, and when we refuse to grow up to be cis men and enforce and reproduce patriarchy, we are misogynized and subject to patriarchal violence far more aggressively than cis women are, with absolutely none of the scant protection that cis womanhood affords. this is not to say that trans womanhood is rooted inherently rooted in suffering or whatever alternate interpretations of my words the reading comprehension website will conjure up. rather, in a patriarchal society, the positionality of ātrans womanā is constructed by both our joyous assertion and embodiment of our womanhood, and the material reaction to that assertion by a society that considers us disposable sex objects and targets of ridicule, harassment, and violence.
i dream of a future where trans people embracing and embodying their authentic selves is met with love and enthusiastic support instead of violence and subjugation. a future where transness, and particularly trans womanhood, can be entirely free from its relationship to patriarchy. but weāll never make it to that future if we donāt put into words our current conditions, and use that awareness to inform political action.
would i still call myself a trans woman in a world where transphobia and misogyny did not exist? i donāt know, and i donāt really care. at the end of the day, i donāt live in that world, and i donāt have the energy or desire to entertain fairy tales and hypotheticals. instead, i seek to understand the material conditions i exist within in order to better articulate our struggle and make the politics of queer and trans liberation more legible to myself and those around me.
I've been meaning to make a post talking about my stroke because y'all got bits and pieces of the recovery but I never actually told the story of HOW it went down and the thing is the type of stroke I had is usually the type young people have and since having mine i've now heard multiple stories of people under 40 having very similar strokes and the scary thing is, is that they didn't get help right away. Because you're young and healthy and sure you feel weird but it'll pass right? but it doesn't, and it gets worse, and by the time you get to the hospital (some people literally take days to go) the deficits are worse and recovery is harder.
so here's a super long post about strokes in general, and mine in particular/what I went through.
So for strokes the signs are abbreviated BE FAST. Balance loss, Eyesight changes, Face drooping, Arm weakness, Speech difficulty, -> Time to call 911.
Had I known those MAYBE I would have figured it out but my symptoms were a little mixed. I was reading (fanfic!) in bed because it was a sunday morning and i had nothing pressing to do and suddenly got dizzy. I put my laptop aside because my eyes were blurring (Eyesight changes - symptom #1), and laid down, thinking it would pass, it didn't, it's a little vague how it progressed because I'd been having headaches and neckpain for about 3 weeks leading up to it so I was like 'idk is this a migraine?' (headaches can be a stroke symptom so symptom #2) but i got nauseous and eventually got up and to my utmost surprise I immediately fell over as if I was the drunkest of frat bros. The room literally spun before my eyes as I fell to the floor (Balance loss - symptom #3). I have had some Nights and I had never been that unsteady before. I crawled my way to the bathroom, threw up (nausea - not a common stroke symptom) , took 800mg of ibuprofen, and crawled back to bed.
if you know anything about ibuprofen you might know it's a mild blood thinner and that's a high dose. I may have inadvertently helped myself with that one. I was just feeling like shit and thinking 'idk this might help'
At this point I still thought we were still in Normal Land. Sure, it was a weird morning, but Surely There Was A Reason. (Yes There Was) Anyway, as I'm lying there willing my body to stop suffering I realize my arm is going numb (stroke symptom #4) and I switch positions, because weird, but it doesn't go away, and I gave it a good little while. I'm on a medication that can make my limbs tingle but it usually just does it to my fingers and it dissipates quickly but this wasn't dissipating, and then I realized one of my legs was also going numb. Then one side of my face is going numb.
(at the time I did not look in the mirror but I had a drooping eyelid - symptom #5)
Those all seem bad. I grab my computer and google 'when to go to the hospital for dizzyness' as that felt like the worst of my problems. and indeed the list I found highlighted that if you are also experiencing loss of balance, blurred vision, nausea, and limb numbness, you should see a doctor. That seems like far too many symptoms to be having all to be listed. I grab my phone (thankfully plugged in and by my bed), and start layering on more clothing because it's about 10 degrees out and i'm in a pajama dress. The very nice man at 911 talks with me and sends an ambulance, I tell him I don't think I can get out the front door of my building on my own and he asks if I can get to MY apartment door to which I say yes and he assures me that's fine they will have keys to my building.
(I have been since informed they love to chop down doors but no, I could get that far)
I wait by my door laying down on the ground and they arrive pretty quickly. They see to me in the hallway, which is more of a lobby in my building and the only place with room for me to lie down (I cannot stand unassisted at this point) they ask me a bunch of questions, take vitals, and ask me where I would like to be taken. Me, having never had to go to the fucking hospital in an emergency before, simply go 'wherever is close' because I again, I am having a stroke and do not have the wherewithal to think through these things.
A big firefighter helps me down the stairs (it's only a half flight and I still almost did not make it) and we get underway.
At the hospital they wheel me into triage and I mostly lie there gratefully and answer some questions and respond to some tests (grip strength, following a pen with my eyes, that sort of thing) and then I hear what is great when you've been at urgent care for two hours but what is Very Bad when you just arrived in an ambulance and that's 'She's next'. I jumped the line for a CT scan and an MRI. I was there less than ten minutes before I was actively being scanned. honestly closer to five.
my active symptoms seem to have been worse than some of the stories I've heard, not being able to walk AT ALL in particular, although some other are pretty equal (Footless Jo on youtube had a stroke around the same time I did of the same type and has discussed hers, she delayed going in despite the severity for a variety of reasons and it sounds like her recovery has been difficult) My recovery was pretty easy because i was actively being cared for and on blood thinners right away. I was pretty out of it in the beginning, but I was only in the hospital for 6 days and then in a rehab for another 4 to relearn how to walk and balance, then i was released unto the world and just spent time going to physical therapy and recovering for awhile. I was out of work for about 8 weeks total. I basically had the best outcome for a stroke. I recovered almost fully back to 100% (I'm about 2% less sure footed than I used to be, but it's rarely noticeable), my face still feels a little weird but has markedly improved so I live in hope it will eventually get back to normal. It massively sucked. But strokes can fuck you up for life and I came out a weird medical story to tell and have to take some extra medication now/precautions to take (i cannot do certain types of yoga, no weightlifting, no push ups, no going on rollercoasters.... things that could strain my neck essentially) but overall I escaped very lucky.
Leftists: "Zionists control Congress, so they're really the ones in power--"
Nah, because then you'd be too scared to harass Jews at Jewish festivals, synagogues, university campuses and rallies, the way you're too scared to harass Trump fans at MAGA rallies.
I love the pedantic comments saying, "No Leftist ever said that--"
a) yes, they did.
b) cool, YOU never heard it, so it didn't happen?
c) okay cool, they more often use terms like, "Israel heavily lobbies Congress and thus influences Congressional decisions--"
So does China and over a dozen Arab Muslim countries, yet I don't see you accusing Chinese or Muslim Americans of "controlling Congress" on those grounds.
In fact, you accuse anyone who does of being "Sinophobic/Islamophobic."
Showing you're all two-faced hypocrites.
d) And again, that's beside the point:
The Left claims to protect minorities.
The Left harasses and attacks Jews.
The Left claims Jews "don't count as minorities" because "Israel donates to Congress, so Jews are REALLY the ones with power--"
Except
1) Diaspora Jews =/= Israelis
2) You cowards never attack ACTUAL Trump Congress Officials or Trump fans at Trump Rallies, because you know deep down they'll actually hit back and/or legally retaliate with the full force of the law.
Thereby demonstrating with your COWARDLY ACTIONS who you REALLY think is in power.
You're not "punching up at those in power" when you harass and attack Jews, you're BULLIES AND COWARDS who're PUNCHING DOWN AT AN EASY TARGET.
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at some point in your life you will be boiling fruit, water, sugar, and lemon juice in a pot to make a syrup or jam. the instructions will tell you to simmer for a certain amt of time. your timer will go off and you will look at the pot and go, "hm, this doesn't look thick enough. maybe i'll let it go for another 10 minutes." this is the devil speaking. it's only so liquid right now because it is at boiling point. it will thicken when it cools down. learn from the follies of my youth and do not let this happen to you
at some point in your life you will be making a sauce or a stew in which you need to add cornstarch to thicken it. and you will prepare a slurry of starch in cold water and think "this looks like way too little starch to thicken this amount of liquid." this is the devil speaking. cornstarch instantly polymerizes at 95°C and if you add too much it will turn into an impossibly thick goop.
at some point in your life you will be making some sort of cream based dessert that requires gelatin to thicken it. and you will soak some gelatin sheets in water and think "this is too few gelatin sheets for this amount of cream." this is the devil speaking. it will thicken in the fridge and if you add too much you will end up with milk jelly
at some point in your life you will be baking cookies. you will take the sheet out after twelve minutes as the recipe instructs and the cookies will still be glistening and soft. "these don't seem cooked enough," you will think to yourself, "i should place them back into the oven until their edges are nice and golden." this is the devil talking. this is how you get dry, overdone cookies. the cookies will continue to bake on the warm sheet for several more minutes and then harden up after sitting on a rack for a while. trust the process. trust the process.
Earthset over the lunar surface and the sun eclipsed by the Moon, seen by the Artemis II crew as they passed behind Earth's closest neighbor yesterday.
my mental health was abysmal when I lived next to a 10 lane motorway in a tiny cramped city that was too hot for me... as soon as I moved back home to aotearoa and got to live by the sea in a small town with lots of green spaces and libraries and cafes and art galleries and sea lions and dolphins and penguins and native birds my mental health SKYROCKETED to the point where it's honestly ridiculous. like saying "I LOVE BEING ALIVE... WOW WOW" out loud on occasion ridiculous. I'm so happy.
moving somewhere better is lifesaving. wishing everyone trapped in a shitty area the absolute best of luck moving somewhere someday that makes you glad to be alive [: it makes such a huge difference.
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I lowkey hate when programs talk to me in a friendly way. "don't worry, nearly there!" Shut up. It should say "loading 64.3% completed. Do not turn off device" and absolutely nothing else. You arent my friend you are computer. Act like it
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I think youāre just throwing out āI hate these two groups and theyāre both menā to say it and arenāt actually taking in what the people youāre arguing against are saying.
MRAs are anti-feminists. They blame their struggles on women and feminism.
Trans men are speaking on the specific issues they face at the intersection of sexism over their bodies, transphobia, and effects from the standards of toxic masculinity being perpetuated around them. They blame their struggles and oppression on the same thing feminists blame their struggles and oppression onāpatriarchy. Most trans men speaking on transandrophobia are feminists and are finding a commonality between the struggles of women, both trans and cis, and trans men, while speaking about how these things impact them specifically as trans men (not just as trans, not just as men; stop separating experiences like this, itās the opposite of intersectional!) in ways that might not be felt by or seen by others.
But you see a man saying anything about oppression and assume instead of reading whatās being said.
And then weāre called reactionary. Because apparently the definition of reactionary isnāt lashing out to maintain a status quo, but instead speaking on hyper-invisible experiences as a reaction to the oppression happening within that hyper-invisibility which was otherwise going unnoticed to a point of painting it as a privilege.
This is why I will always fight alongside trans men and trans mascs for their liberation as well as mine. Well, aside from the fact that all people deserve to live comfortably, free of violence and systematic oppression. We share a common fight against Patriarchy, a fight against this system that enforces restrictive gender roles upon us all that are based on a false gender binary, which is, in turn, based on an also-false sex binary.
At its heart, partiarchy is another system designed to divide people into opposing groups by claiming that the two groups are irreconcilably separate. And, from this, it reinforces other hierarchies as well. When you accept that men and women are inherently different, its not a stretch to convince you that people of different races are inherently different, or people of different nationalities or cultures, those of different classes, of different religions, and so on and so on. While those other forms of oppression won't go away if we dismantle patriarchy, they will be weakened, and we will have more resources to put into the fights against those other systems.
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