Hello you weird little freaks

I wanted to render a gorgeous spiky metal ball so I drew @demilypyro’s new model as well

We finally made her tall. She's now, proportionally, about the same build as I am irl. And she's very long. Almost lanky. Long-time followers will know I used to have a TON of height dysphoria. It was one of the things I hated most about my body, I always felt like I looked like a weird, disproportionate freak. But as the years went by and my body filled out from the hormone therapy and better eating habits, I slowly became more okay with it. Finally, I started dressing in a way that suited me, with pants that emphasized the length of my legs, and then my height dysphoria disappeared entirely.

We also made the tank top more or less the "default" outfit, exposing the arms more often, something I also used to dislike.

And yes, we made her more tan. My relationship with my ethnicity has been a very confused one, with me being Iranian on my dad's side and white on my mom's, but never having really been introduced to Iranian culture at all in my upbringing. It's often left me feeling lost, which has only recently started abating as I got to know some other locals with Iranian heritage. Still, that heritage informs a lot of how I look, and that was never really properly reflected in Demily beyond the hair texture and eyebrows.

So, Demily now sports the skintone I get in the summer months, with olive skin, and by contrast, the old model seems blindingly pale to me now. Between that and the height it seems obvious several decisions in the original design were guided by white beauty standards that I just don't subscribe to anymore.

Therapist: canon height Demily can't hurt you

-A depressed pre hrt trans woman with no partner and having to work a shitty fast food job

i figured it out