go forth and have no fear

Having a loved one in Israel is weird bcs I have every personal reason to want this war over as soon as possible, but I can't hang around and talk with other people against the war, bcs most of the people against the war in the west kinda want the person I love dead, and yeah.

A lot of people's idea of being anti war is desiring one side to completely obliterate the other through conquest, and thinking they'll be no war after that because the enemy race has been neutralized, which is definitionally the most pro-war thing you can think.

i love people so much that im trying to be one myself. its a bit crazy, i know…

its interesting how the people who say "my trauma made me funny" are never actually funny just uncomfortably self-deprecating

i haven’t yapped abt it as much recently but ive been doing pretty well with resisting ocd stuff recently and it feels like a big win :> its still a struggle but i managed to resist my biggest compulsion for (almost) a full week now !!!! and like. idk if i’ll be able to keep the streak going bc tomorrow and the day after are going to be pretty stressful days and when im stressed or exhausted i usually give up on resisting much faster🫣 but i’m still optimistic that i might manage to pull thru