- since 2016, Iβve gotten a degree in a field that I love, been in a toxic relationship, had a toxic relationship end, been in a kind but ultimately not what we wanted relationship, had that end too, been single for a while, learned Iβm trans, started hrt, gotten in a different lovely proudly queer relationship which Iβm very happy in, made friends, lost friends, mourned friends, made new friends, gotten a job I liked, made manager, quit, got another job that lets me do a bit of good in the world, gotten top surgery, travelled, swam shirtless in the warm sea, written half a dozen zines and a poetry chapbook, performed poetry, accepted Iβm probably never gonna make a career out of poetry alone, gone on and off and on again various mental health treatments and hopeful that this one will stick for as long as it needs to, walked probably a thousand or more cumulative miles wearing through the soles of half a dozen or more boots, laughed, cried, rested, collapsed from fatigue, crawled back out again
- if I could reach back to the kid making this postβ¦ buddy, Iβm not gonna say itβll all be alright, because thatβs pat and trite and diminishes the very real struggles of growing. But we cut our hair and change our name and grow a beard and weβre not Quite out of the shitty little hometown but weβre getting there. I think youβd like the jumper Iβm wearing. I saw mcr live and I know youβd kill me with jealousy for it. I took you with me, as much as I could. I still think youβve got great taste in movies, and Iβve got some new recs for you.
- I now have 4 tattoos! None of them are the ones I thought Iβd have, but thatβs okay. The first one is not an art style Iβd choose today but the design holds a ton of meaning for me, and always will, and I donβt regret it. The other 3 are a more cohesive art style - maybe I could have changed the placement or tweaked some details, but I donβt need to, theyβre part of me now and theyβre beautiful for it. Iβm excited to get more and to live long enough to reflect on them like this again and again and again