Allergic to sleep

"do it scared" i do it scared everytime im scared all the time

im a protected species you fucking asshole

thinking abt how after bingqiu get married and shen yuan can just finally relax bcs he has nothing to worry abt regarding his life or binghe's or the fate of the world and he can enjoy domestic bliss. Everyday spent with binghe makes him miss his family more than anything in the world, he looks at binghe and all he can think about is how much his family would've loved him. How much his sister would've adored Binghe and loved baking with him. How much his brothers would've gone crazy over how physically fit binghe is and what his workout routine would be. How fond his mother would've been of binghe especially after she finds out abt his family history, how she would practically become his mother too, looking after him like his own son. Every time SQQ looks at Binghe, shen yuan feels grief bubbling up and tears just stream down his face quietly, it's all finally catching up to him. All the love that has nowhere to go, that was left behind with his body back home. Binghe doesn't know what to do, all he knows is that his beloved has been inconsolable every time his eyes meet binghe's and for the first time in his life, he finds there's absolutely nothing he can do.