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Introduction 𖹭.ᐟ

Hi, I'm K (she/her)!

I'm currently on a journey of shedding the many labels I wear in order to be the woman I've always been underneath! You're free to join me as I learn that taking up space is okay. Here to dump my many thoughts and things that have helped me from time to time.

Note: I want my blog to be a safe space! Queers, fat bodies, poc and the coolest of peeps are very welcome here. Don't like that? Then don't interact. And please do not use my posts as motivation for harmful behavior. Thank you!

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as I was deciding on what to order for lunch (knowing exactly what I wanted), my partner noticed I was taking forever and that I kept leaning towards foods I didn't want. they asked, "why're you denying yourself of your own desires?" the whole world felt like it took a pause. I am now coming to the realization that so much of my life has been the result of me settling for shit I did not want - whether it was out of fear or 'scarcity mindset.'

I wasn't pushed growing up. any idea or want I had, no one really encouraged me to try and that makes me kinda sad as an adult. now I have to heal my relationship with newness/change and my fear surrounding it on my own. it's hard.

I wasn't really taught or had a lot of things explained to me as a kid, either. my family either expected me to know how to do something already or when I fucked up, they'd tease me or get pissed at my mistake. I don't wish to be coddled. I wish they had taken the time to show me how to do something so that I knew for future reference. now as an adult, I have loads of trust issues with myself and my decisions. I'm learning to face my fear one day at a time.

I hate to admit it, but ever since I graduated high-school, I was lonely. I didn't feel like I "deserved" to say that, though. because yes, I had family constantly around. yes, two of my friends stayed in touch with me and we spoke every few months. but I was isolated. so much of my late teens to early 20s was spent in my room. it's only now that I've began to feel like a person and see that the world is so much larger than these four walls. I've experienced so many things in the last 6 months, and it's been such an exciting shift!

I'm only twenty-something; the first chapter of my life has only just begun, and that's okay. I'm right where I'm supposed to be.

youtube reccs to start off the week ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✮

"I don't want to manage a body" by Nina Montagne

"The job market is so bad right now, you might as well chase your dreams" by myade

"I consume, therefore I exist" by Seun Unfiltered

"How to do shadow work" by hoodwinkler