talking about some of my body image issues. Nothing too detailed but if you don’t wanna hear about it or just in case it’s triggering in some way? I wasn’t sure but I added a cut just in case.
I always think all of my issues with my body are behind me and I’ve got it all figured out and I’m finally okay with it all but then it just sneaks up on me like “miss me?”
Like god, after years and years of this shit I’m finally doing so much better and it just pops up out of nowhere and I cancelled a whole night of plans with my friends just because I hated how my body looked and my arms and my stomach and legs. Really bad night today and I’ve pretty much stained the next few days with this horrible feeling.
I always diminish it like “other people definitely had it worse so I shouldn’t be this upset” but it really took up such a large portion of my life and I’ve never really talked about it and I don’t see many people talking about it. I mean yeah there’s stuff about body image and really hating the way you look but in real life and my personal social circles it feels sort of taboo for no reason. And when you do bring it up it’s always “oh but you’re so pretty” and “you’re not even chubby or anything” which is sweet but not helpful at all. I’m not expecting a whole therapy session but it feels like they don’t really get it and makes me wanna shut up about it even more.
I’m rambling lol and my grammar is shit (half my commas disappeared) but like whatever. You get the idea