I genuinely hate how "lock in and grind like hell" is not a method that works for me. Like if I could do that, I 100% would, but I know from experience that it's not an efficient long-term tactic for me, I'll just grind myself down and get exhausted and burnt out, and that I genuinely cannot do my best work unless I'm mentally and physically well-rested. I know it's true but I still hate knowing how much it sounds like a lazy excuse to dilly-dally and do fuck-all.
I'm doing my work slowly, at a leisurely pace where I'm still on schedule but not feeling pressured about it. I know that this is the best way for me to work. I know that my boyfriend knows this or at least trusts my judgement about it even if he doesn't agree with that. But good fucking grief I hate sitting down like "today I will do work prep beforehand so I'll have everything already 50% done by the day of the deadline and can easily just do the other 50% on the day of", and the next time he looks over, I'm drawing owl feet.
Owl feet.
