Uma mente pensante

Cramps. PMS. Boyfriend playing games instead of helping. Friends against you. Fights. Judgmental people. Future. Head. Scream. Tears. Love. Distance. Parents. Dog. Goals. Finding a job. Money. Career. Diet. Crazy Hair. Girls mind = repeat it all.

Do you have any idea how it feels to be hated from everyone around you? Regardless, when you are trying your best to not explode and do everything with love? Even in the hardest time people find a way to judge you wrong and to hurt your feelings like all they want is to make you feel miserable? It seems like the universe is against you. Its so hard to not react wrong when everything seems to fall apart. Its so difficult to take a deep breathe and calm yourself down when all you really want its to scream and bit the shit of someones head. Sometimes you think that is better to stay away so you can actually  see who are the real ones that truly cares about you.

Why do I love F.R.I.E.N.D.S more then any other series in the world? Because no matter how sad I am when I start watching their life on the screen I just forget about the world outside of Central Perk and Apartment 20 with the purple walls and apartment 19 with the most comfortable and ugliest brown chairs. I can watch the same stupid episode a billion times over and over again and I will always feel happy.

Sometimes I just wish to be surprised in the middle of a busy Monday shitty day with a card, flowers or something from him that reminds me how much he actually loves me. Sometimes I wish he would show up at my apartment in the middle of the night with same crap Chinese food and the most romantic smile just to say he misses me. Sometimes I wish he could realize these things alone..

People let you down for the purpose of their own happiness. Why that? Because its easier to build up their self esteem based on others failures then in their own success. But in some point of life these people will fall down and its not going to be easy to rebuild happiness because in fact, they never had it.

I don't know what to expect from my future. What destiny is saving it from me? Honestly.. No idea. Even if my plans change directions and I don't get what i have always wanted, one little thing i know..I will always love you with all my worries, my dreams, my fears, my plans and my soul.

Eu quero mais do que as pessoas esperam que eu seja. Eu quero poder me encontrar no meio desse mundo tão grande. Eu quero que meus filhos se orgulhem de mim e me vejam como um exemplo. Eu quero lutar com vontade para algo que eu realmente amo. A questão é que eu não sei o que eu amo ainda. Eu não quero ser apenas mais uma advogada que ganha um salário normal na minha cidade. Eu não quero ser apenas mais uma. Quando eu escontrei o amor da minha vida, eu lutei por ele. Eu o esperei. Sofri muito, chorei, mas no fundo meu coração mandava eu aguarda-lo porque, na verdade, eu sempre soube que era ele. Agora, eu gostaria de saber o que lutar como lutei por ele, o que eu realmente amo e o que vale a pena esperar, sofrer, chorar e no fim ser feliz. Quando fecho os olhos, sei que o que realmente amo e sempre gostei de fazer é o que estou fazendo agora. Escrever. Ajudar as pessoas com conselhos e palavras. Contar histórias de amor, sonhar com o amor, lutar por ele, viajar nos meus próprios pensamentos. O amor dele me faz acreditar que eu consigo realizar esse meu sonho. Antes de conhecê-lo, tudo era muito nublado na minha mente, nada parecia estar ao meu alcance. Agora eu sei que é isso que eu quero. Escrever é o que eu amo, ajudar as pessoas é meu maior prazer. Eu tenho uma história em mente e vou lutar para fazê-la virar realidade e quem sabe, muitas outras.

Um abraço apertado. Um carinho no cabelo.Um beijo na nuca. Uma sorriso sincero. Um olhar apaixonado...É tudo o que eu quero.

Don’t judge me because I followed my heart. I knew something wrong was going on. I rather trust my instincts then live wondering what really happened

I believe that destiny exist and two people are actually meant to be together forever. So don't cry your heart out because some stupid guy lied to you or hurt your feelings. Your true love is waiting for  you somewhere in the world. Go find it.

Me ama de mansinho, com carinho e cuidado…Posso parecer de pedra por fora, mas por dentro sou frágil..Ah! Nem te disse..Meu coração para você já estava guardado..

Destiny is inside of you, love yourself first then look around. You may find your love right next you.

Silence is the key of all the words that could not make a sentence

Amor é dar sem esperar receber o mesmo em troca. É fazer a outra pessoa te olhar com um sorriso mais lindo do mundo que faz com que qualquer palavra de carinho seja despercebida.

Your best friend is that person who will listen to your late night fears about your relationship, your endless drama about what to do as a professional in the future and gives you a huge box of ice cream when your feeling horrible instead of driving you out to a party and make you feel shittier in the day after. Your truly best friend makes you get you shit together and look forward to the next day of life.

Who ever wondered before falling asleep what your true love is doing at that exactly moment you were thinking of his/hers existence? Where he/shes lives ? Have had already seen each other ? Or when you both would get to know? If you already know and have not yet discovered love itself ?