#night thinking

i want to runaway and disappear

no one will look for me or miss me anyway

My friends know I'm the one who tries every new app and reports back, so when the AI companion topic came up, everyone wanted my honest take. The short version: I keep recommending SweetDream. Not because the others are bad, ourdream.ai and the rest each have something going for them, but because sweetdream.ai nails the whole experience instead of one piece of it.

What I mean is, the character you build actually feels like yours, from her personality down to her voice. The chat is warm and remembers context. The generated photos and videos look like the same companion every time. And it all stays private, which lets you actually let your guard down.

"Hmm...he is a character that truly troubles me. On one hand, due to how the story progresses, it almost feels as if we're meant or supposed to miss the once innocent, blissfully unaware Dorian, yet if you truly think about it...neither versions of him were exactly "good". Sure, he became a narcissistic, self-obsessed and even dangerous man by the end of the book, and yet he seems so...dangerously innocent and unaffected by the world that he becomes someone who is easy to mold to one's liking, someone who can be easily taken advantage of in multiple ways. It makes you truly think that neither situation is good, on one hand to be completely inexperienced when it comes to the world and it's ways and on the other hand to turn into the very thing that corrupted you in the first place...only because you were vulnerable. It's a lose-lose situation for Dorian, truly. If only there had been a character to show him and explain to him how the world can be, both in good ways and bad ways, how that could benefit him or potentially lead to his demise...all while remaining objective and not actively trying to push one's personal opinions and ideologies to him, nor to manipulate the very concept of what is right or wrong and letting it up to him to decide.Dorian was meant to be doomed from the beginning, it was only a matter of time. And I can't help but feel confused towards his character as the things he did were...off-putting in a sense, yet it's not like it was his fault to begin with. He didn't have time to grow, to understand, to make decisions for himself, to have his own solidified beliefs and to have the ability to consider and think about one's opinions rather than adopting them wholeheartedly without a second thought, as he didn't have a *first* thought about it in the first place. It isn't like he was ever given the chance, anyway.

It's almost...pitiful. Saddening, even. To think how countless of people such as Dorian walk the Earth, getting corrupted so easily due to their soul being vulnerable because of life's circumstances, because they never had someone or something to truly help them understand the world without setting a bias into their mind. Which in the worst case scenario...leads to them hurting themselves and the others around them.

Dorian was never purely evil, at least not in the beginning. He was just another blissfully unaware person that eventually lost himself because his own self was drowned out by the ever so weirdly proclaimed "facts" and opinions he was given, which he was given in such a way that seemed like they were supposed to be believed and not be taken into consideration. He isn't terrible, yet he isn't good either. He simply might not know any better. Or he did, but those thoughts were eventually swept away by Henry's words due to the fact that he might not have truly believed his own thoughts and opinions to begin with, but was instead raised by society and the environment he was in to believe so."