and like. LISTEN. shane is a tough, strong dude, okay? he has played a heavy contact sport since he was an itty bitty. he is no shrinking violet. he can take a hit and get back up and keep going. he's no stranger to like. grabbing shoulders and a little playful jostling. but i also feel like his vibe on the team with the metros made him a little untouchable (first with respect that still made him "other" and then with. well.) beyond things like shoulder punches from jj and helmet taps with hayden.

and now he's gotten tossed into this locker room where he is accepted and welcomed but ALSO maybe getting fucking whiplash on the reg from cliff's affection. like hey! thank you for including me! but also you just fucking RAGDOLLED me the SECOND i walked in here today and i am a little turned on and ALARMED about it. just a little.

like hits on the ice? yeah. shane understands those. gets 'em and deals 'em all the time. no big. a little bro shoulder tapping/shaking? yeah sure.

but cliff just fucking. 🗣️HOLL-ZY! MY GUUUY! 🗣️ and that is shane's ONLY warning that he's about to get borderline shaken adult syndrome. everyone else in the locker room including ilya knows to brace or dodge by this point, but shane is still adjusting.

shortest possible story is that he he got arrested and hospitalized after walking around outside at night, MAYBE having 'an episode', MAYBE he was drunk, maybe he was high, maybe he was just being loud, who knows. Dude was outside at night in boxers and cowboy boots and that's all he did to "invite" police interaction.

But cops claimed he assaulted them so he gets arrested. Then goes to the hospital. Then goes back into custody.

And then he's not heard of for a while, then days later says he's out and okay. But facing FELONY charges!

Almost a year later, Lil Nas X is out of a mental health rehab program, looking good, saying he feels really good, and seems to be on the way up after all of this. I'm really happy for him. I hope he has good genuine support in his life through family, friends, and folks rooting on him that he can count on.

I am really disappointed but not surprised how quickly a lot of media support for him disappeared, especially queer papers. An interview from before the police incident really highlighted how many people wanted him to fail and wanted to see him fall, including certain pockets within communities that should have has his back.

It's honestly impossible to overstate what a big deal that is. Canada constantly losing their hockey talent to US teams and the Stanley drought...it doesn't fucking matter what went down with those French Canadians, the rest of the country is ignoring that, he's still their hero.

how‘s the water?

you‘re in it

"Lost in the Moment", Ilya Rozanov & Shane Hollander [Connor Storrie & Hudson Williams] from Heated Rivalry, part of an art exchange with @eggchayi

Jun 2026

Isolated images, watercolour textures and overlays, overlines drawn by hand, simple and what I wanted from this moment

the longer this ariana grande body talk shit goes on, the angrier I get. the more weight I lose due to my debilitating illness, the more angry the whole "we shouldn't talk about this, because what if she's sick" makes me!

I'm really sick! I have a really limited diet bc of my illness and I have been losing a lot of weight involuntarily! it has gotten to a point where I am looking noticably frail/skeletal and its quite scary, actually! I just had a dietician appointment which was mostly focused on making sure I'm getting the maximum calories and nutrients right now and I'm looking into asking some specialists what they think about supplemental tube feeding bc of how concerned we all are about how thin I am now!

what I'm saying is, my body looks a troubling amount like the kind of body people are expressing concern about being glamorized by celebs right now.

and,

if I was a public figure, it would be my responsibility to make it very clear that I understood the impact that seeing my body glamorized in films and on billboards could have on people. as a public figure, it would be my job to be like, "the size that I am is one that is celebrated and privileged in our society, and it's important to me to make it clear that I don't cosign that and actively oppose it, and that I want all my fans to know I don't want them to look like me. I want them to look like themselves."

or something. I don't know I don't have a PR department. but it's just so fucking galling to respond to this like it's about her specific health rather than the impact that someone with this much fame and glamor and visibility being this size has on the culture and what harmful social issues (that actually hurt people!!) it plays into. I don't think I would be obligated to share my private medical information as a public figure, but I do think it would be my responsibility to refuse to participate in the glamorization of the size of my body.

it sucks. it fucking sucks seeing people use sick people to excuse this going undiscussed. "think about chadwick boseman" don't try to tell me about that shit!!! that was people making racist crackhead memes about a dying black man. this is about a woman who is a white celebrity pop idol whose image is literally everywhere in very idealized and glamorized ways. if you don't know the difference between those two things then you don't know enough about this. I don't care about ariana's health any more or less than I care about the health of any stranger (which is to say, I hope that she is well, and if she is not well then I hope she is able to get effective treatment and recover. because that is how I feel about everyone) and the details of it are not my business. it's not really about her.

pretending to care about sick or disabled people in order to silence necessary conversations about harmful social trends rooted in fatphobia and misogyny and ableism is a shitty look! I don't believe for a second the people who use this argument actually care about people who lose dangerous amounts of weight very quickly for health reasons! because I am one of those people and I THINK WE SHOULD BE TALKING ABOUT THIS.