#suspecting npd

ORANGE MANIAC & CO

coll name :: The Council

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INFO

hi we're making an introduction its nice to meet you guys

we collectively go by our username and shortened versions of it, & collectively use he.they.it prns ^^

classic system blog, nothin too fancy. we are most definitely anti-endos & co though.

we are an osdd-1b (self-dx) system of however many alters (we constantly lose track like where are they coming from </3), and we're bodily a minor (16+).

we are fictive & nonhuman heavy, and we collectively have audhd + anxiety.

we're open to asks of any kind ! just follow our DNI and we'll attempt to respond to asks as much and as accurately as possible :)

(we're idiots but we try ok /silly)

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INTERESTS

dsaf, fnaf, jjk, glass animals, the weeknd, kendrick lamar, vocaloid, vrchat, pjsk, ect ect we like stuff

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DNI

ok (not-so)fun stuff now

DNI if you happen to be :: (pro)endos & co(endogenics, tulpagenics, willowgenics, polyminds, the sort) , (pro)radqueers , (pro)transIDs , t.r.a.s.h. , anyone -12 & 25+ , NSFW blogs , pro-contact paraphilias , other basic criteria. we block freely.

"And trolls, don't get blocked." /ref /silly

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TAGS

my favorite part, honestly

# 🍊 × orange maniac & co × - our umbrella tag. literally every original text post/reblog with text is under here so treat as a masterlist perhaps

# 🍊 × syscourse = buffoonery - talks abt syscourse, such as how endos & co r weirdos n the like / laughing at syscourse

# 🍊 × yapping - general stuff, yapping sessions, ect ect

# 🍊 × questions :: answered edition - asks ! from people ! yay !

# 🍊 × reblogging - reblogs. iiff you don't like reblogs then block this tag... freak...

# 🍊 × intros - the occasional alter intro or two

# 🍊 × you're my friend now :3 - interacting with moots hi moots we love u /platonic

# 🍊 × silly + other - silly stuff or misc stuff I saw u mimi... learn how to tag things... /directedtoanalter

# 🍊 × [name/signoff] {[prns]} - posts by us ! also yay !

# anti endos & co - a tag we coined as an umbrella tag for non-traumagenics. use it ! it's for traumagenic systems ! and people against endos & co !!

other stuff under the cut <3

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Gods I keep seeing old screenshots in my gallery of the shit I said that made an awful impact and reaction towards someone when I was in a mental state where I did shit on impulsive anger (to the point of saying awful things even if it was a crash out on my public main on impulse) and also envy/jealousy which. gods I feel so terrible but I know I can't reconcile or apologize without seeming like I was reasonable (because I wasn't) or that I'm making excuses (because apparently I don't know what not making excuses is ??) even though I grew up trying to piece together proper apologies on my own

I wish I had figured out how to manage my anger and other emotions long ago because there're so many mistakes I keep making and that's always these little tantrums that I'm forced to hide to myself, I wanna change even further— I really do .

But I don't know why it's such a hard thing for me, I feel like I'm getting better at being a 'better person who appears stable' but whether or not I've figured out how to cope with my emotions without feeling like I'm under constant disrespect and threat is the worst thing I got rn ..

"hey mom i have [these symptoms]"

"but ur a nice person! u dont manipulate ANYONE! ur so sweet and nobody is perfect. i love you."

ok. so. ur like. false.

found the originals here ↓