#covert npd

You are the best.

Yes, you specifically, I'm looking at YOU.

You're not a monster, you're not evil like society makes you and your disorder out to be.

You are perfect, you don't need to change for anyone and you're important. Everyone wants to be your friend, everyone wants to be like you because you're so fucking amazing.

See, from my perspective, I don't like that there are homeless people on the street generating trash, standing around covered in filth, and generally making cities unpleasant to be in either. I'm also not stupid. While I might not care if they live or die, I can easily recognize that if we just gave them places to live and resources to use, then the streets would be easy to clean up and maintain. Then, everywhere you go could look clean, neat, modern, and stylish.

What’s the difference?

(Chart made by me based on my own understandings, do not take this as fact)

Healthy neurotypicals usually feel guilt and remorse

Covert Vulnerable NPDers usually feel shame and sometimes regret, but not remorse and guilt

Some NPDers with lower levels of insecurity may feel guilt without shame

PwASPD often lack remorse or shame but may or may not experience regret

What do I feel?

I hate to admit it but if I think if I did unmask and voiced my real feelings, I would fit the “all narcs are evil and don't care about anyone but themselves” stereotype.

But I think the fact that I hide all of my fucked up gross thoughts and I do make an effort to be a good person is telling enough that I'm kind of not really any different than the average person. Idk 💭

pretty much based on my experiences and what i think are caused by my npd

+ mine under cut (its biased because i made it abt myself but shh)

This is a comic about my experience with covert NPD, ableism will not be accepted

This is word for word something that one of my close friends said to help me with my tendencies to never express any of the intense negativity I feel and honestly this really helped me understand that I’m not wrong for wanting to vent that anger

im DONE with hearing that because i have NPD i automatically am a bad person

im DONE with hearing that because i have NPD my partner should leave me

im DONE with hearing that because i have NPD i can’t be self aware

im DONE with hearing that because i have NPD i can’t be hurt by anything and anyone

im DONE with being treated like a subhuman and bad person just because i was diagnosed with NPD.