(This post is about queerplatonic yearning, I'm aromantic, this is not about romance)
I want someone who will love me to the maximum extent they can love someone. Who will choose me as much as I choose them. Who will text me first. Who will continue the conversations I initiate because they want to know about my day too. Who will reply by the next day if I text them too late.
The stupid thing is that I've already got someone like that, but I don't like them as much as they like me (for a multitude of reasons, first of all bc they're kinda too much older than me for it to feel completely normal ngl, and they are not aro so it feels like romance eugh).
And the one I currently actually want to do all these things does half of them, but somehow I'm still not satisfied. I want requited love for once, that's it. Starting to think I should resign to open myself up for romantic relationships but those give me the ick.
It's so hard to fall in love as an aro when your QPR pool is already tiny and then you find someone so compatible and so lovely that it hurts and you've been through this already and you're making all the same mistakes.
I hate this so much
